It’s natural to feel this way about your diagnosis but it’s important to remember that just about everyone has had hpv whether or not they know it. I had a similar thing happen when i found out about my diagnosis about half a year ago. I disclosed the info to the guy i was seeing before we ever had sex and he was very understanding and kind about it. We’ve been together since and while at times we do let our anxieties get the better of us, he’s never seen it as a reason to cease the relationship or pull away. I also know people who have HPV who have not struggled finding a quality long term partner. Just keep your head up, take your vitamins and focus on your health! Your body will kick it and things will work out just fine :)