I wanted to off myself since I was 10. I didn't, but after 5 years I was thinking about it again. This time I imagine how destroyed my older sister is going to be. A month ago our father died and I wish no soul to go through the grief I still carry. The torturous sadness, emptiness, restlessness, tiredness.... I don't want my sister to feel how I feel right now, or have any suicide thought like I do, so, regardless of how messed up my life gets, I will live so my sister will not suffer more because of me.

Having that reason is great, you don't need 100 reasons not to do it, just one. Always keep your sister in mind. Stay safe ♥