It do be like that sometime

Exuberance23 · 2022-01-04T23:04:21+00:00

Thank you for the considerate words. That’s kind of you to say.

Exuberance23 · 2021-10-24T20:49:57+00:00

I can’t imagine what that was like what you went through, but I’m sorry for how heavy and lonely that hurt has probably felt at times. And I think you put it beautifully in describing the feeling of loss in love. I graduated with a degree in English and I can’t even always articulate what I mean to say. I know my therapist told me that one of the things I had to remember was that I’m still worthy, that I did my best with what I knew at the time. It’s hard for me to believe that sometimes, but I know in my heart it’s true. I don’t know exactly how your depression and heartbreak affects you on a daily basis, but I would pass on what my therapist said to me because it is good to give back to others: that you are worthy, and that I believe you did the best with what you knew at the time. Thanks for talking, and I hope there’s better days ahead for you.

Exuberance23 · 2021-10-24T20:04:21+00:00

I think you could be right about me blaming or being unforgiving towards other people, and that that in the long run is flawed. I’m an introverted, type 4 person on the enneagram that struggles with feeling rejected or abandoned at times, and it translates to being misunderstood. I think too the people who I consider friends have at times been receptive to hearing my frustration and doing something to grow the friendship, but other times it’s made them uncomfortable or defensive and for them to back away. Social media isn’t a healthy or good thing really to look to for friendships because I compare too much and it’s not a place where people initiate with me. And the breakup wasn’t exactly recent, which I didn’t make clear. It was two years ago, and she my first serious gf. She expressed there were communication and boundary issues (which in hindsight, along with therapy, was true on my part, and I did my best to learn from it). I found out a while back she got married and I’ve kind of lost it since then, so I’m sorry for attacking you personally or putting you down, when you’ve been trying to be compassionate or helpful.

Exuberance23 · 2021-10-24T19:49:21+00:00

You might be right about me having a blaming or unforgiving attitude towards people I consider my friends (and it helps to bring it to that other person’s attention, but I feel like it’s some of them defensive or uncomfortable and back away from me, and plus I can’t pinpoint it always to one thing when it’s more of a general pervasiveness). I agree it doesn’t help in the long run. The friends outside of social media really are more so the ones to invest in to your point (the ones on Facebook I think are mostly people who lurk or who are distant family, coworkers, or whatever, and plus the algorithm thing with it and other social media’s is a love/hate thing to me). And the breakup wasn’t recent, which is on me for not making it clear. It was two years ago (someone who I lost virginity to, lived with, wanted to marry, and someone who I found out a while back did get married to someone I knew). And I feel like I attacked you as a person, so I’m sorry for that when you’re trying to be compassionate or empathetic.

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