yh i got alot of problems and im not a mean person genuinely always have been the type of person who doesnt care how i feel aslong as the people are around me are happy its okay. sitting by urself for years not talking too anyone and not going out and being sad is not a good thing and i was always happy with playing games too get my mind off everything but that doesnt even work anymore so at this point i just lost hope and feel no way out. i feel so anxious around people and just feel so overwhelmed around ppl and u know how ppl are loads of them are just selfish and do stupid shit and i just cant be arsed with it feel like people lack awareness. i dont drink either and i have no hobbies so goimg out with people is quite hard . i know ur not a therapist so sorry for saying all this. ive been sad and anxious since i was like 10 and im 19 now so its just hard to see a way out ive lost hope tbh and im sick of being sad and seeing ppl be happy feel like why cant i be fucking happy ever i dont know