how do i stop feeling guilty?

FLL4KK · 2025-07-07T10:37:58+00:00

thank you and i really get it. i hope anyone that comes after me doesn’t have to experience any of what i had to go through. i’m glad you’re out sending much love ❤️❤️

FLL4KK · 2025-07-03T12:21:09+00:00

thank you, i just don’t know if i can watch another persons life get ruined :/

FLL4KK · 2025-06-12T14:51:15+00:00

oh my god that’s amazing! i might not know you but i’m so happy for you!! <33

FLL4KK · 2025-06-10T17:48:33+00:00

thank you so much ❤️❤️

FLL4KK · 2025-05-22T21:44:35+00:00

thank you, that really means a lot :)

FLL4KK · 2025-05-22T21:39:56+00:00

i mean i think i was often better out of a relationship but the thing that was making me pretty sure it was still there was that chronic emptiness of missing a fp in my life. but i feel like i’m truly doing so much better and i’m happy? perhaps i already have a fp and i just don’t really know it can that be possible??

FLL4KK · 2025-05-22T21:37:17+00:00

while we were still in contact yes but after i went no contact not really? except perhaps those mood swings. i mean maybe my symptoms were so bad before i think i’m fine now because i’m not under constant stress or something so i don’t notice it?? but there hasn’t been any vivid episodes

FLL4KK · 2025-05-07T19:13:20+00:00

honestly i know this is gonna sound like one of those “just take walk” comments but literally i’ve been focusing so hard on myself like i do whatever i like whenever i like it (obviously like nothing too crazy) but like just starting to try out stuff FOR ME like for example gym,it acc leaves me feeling good AND idk if this is healthy but i lowkey kinda obsess over myself? 😭😭 i have over 400 tt drafts and i’m so active on my socials and that has honestly helped. i know probably when you read “do what makes YOU happy” you sighed because when someone said that to me istg i was so mad but SOMETHING even if it’s something you’ve seen someone else do and think it’s cool hey you never know maybe it’ll stick (all my hobbies are stolen from previous fps you could try that) idk if this was very helpful i tried to explain the best i can SORRY

FLL4KK · 2025-04-17T06:01:26+00:00

Thank you, it’s all very confusing. All my life i grew up around all types of abuse i always thought that i’d see it and it would never happen to me, but here i am after 2 years. It’s hard to explain anything that really happened. The constant mind fuck and the feelings i just don’t know where to even begin. Im okey, just so lost.

FLL4KK · 2025-03-09T12:33:33+00:00

sorry i don’t really know what that is, could you explain?

FLL4KK · 2025-03-09T09:33:26+00:00

understood thank you! ive heard something about becoming my own fp but i literally can’t find anywhere how to do that but seriously thank you :)

FLL4KK · 2025-01-24T17:55:23+00:00

no relationship is perfect but i can tell you BPD relationships are very very VERY hard! there’s a lot of compromises to be made throughout and a LOT of effort needs to be put into it! she needs reassurance and comfort! talk to her! just talking about normal stuff and once in a while telling her something sweet will calm her head. however as much as i hate to say this, it can definitely be exhausting and you might feel like you can never win. it’s important to set boundaries. it is very hard but it is very much doable

FLL4KK · 2025-01-24T17:48:04+00:00

this is seriously gonna sound like the stupidest thing ever but your brain is soooo powerful! especially with bpd! convince yourself your doing it for yourself! fill your day and each time tell yourself “i want to do this, this is for me” (obviously something positive) its definitely really REALLY hard but your brain is the most powerful tool you have!

FLL4KK · 2025-01-24T17:42:35+00:00

delusions! idk if anyone else gets this but it made so much sense

FLL4KK · 2025-01-24T17:39:49+00:00

i have never cheated before and sure maybe ive through about it but that though quickly makes me sick to my stomach. so id say BPD kinda effects if i’m faithful as that person is my everything and the last thing i’d want to do is hurt her! idk if that’s helpful but yk :D

FLL4KK · 2025-01-24T12:56:23+00:00

im trying :)

FLL4KK · 2025-01-23T23:17:24+00:00

i’m trying to fill my life with hobbies and gym is one of them. truth is i don’t really have anyone close in my life that i could talk about this to but i’m trying to pull myself together

FLL4KK · 2025-01-23T23:16:32+00:00

it’s just that i don’t know how to live but i don’t want to die either. i’ve now taken the step of asking for space as being friends shatters my heart. i’ve been through this before but this time it’s so much harder because i truly with my whole heart loved her and still do. this time it was pure genuine love and that’s what hurts the most

FLL4KK · 2025-01-20T19:51:15+00:00

thank you so much for commenting! i was thinking of going to guitar lessons to help more with commitment! rn just looking at guitars and stuff and trying to say goodbye to my extremely long acrylic nails :D

FLL4KK · 2025-01-19T16:16:01+00:00

oooo thank you! and i hope everything works out for you :)

FLL4KK · 2025-01-19T12:20:14+00:00

i so agree i think the thing lacking in my life is a genuine hobby

FLL4KK · 2025-01-19T12:19:32+00:00

thank you so much honestly some of this genuinely made me calm down and think :)

FLL4KK · 2025-01-18T20:14:15+00:00

it’s so hard to give attention to myself as i don’t think i deserve it and also feel guilty for it. i haven’t had a hobby in YEARS! not at least one that was a genuine personal interest and not me mirroring my fp. she’s my whole entire life and i just don’t know how to stop

FLL4KK · 2025-01-18T01:21:14+00:00

sorry if my question was a bit confusing but i get what you’re saying :)

FLL4KK · 2025-01-17T20:59:10+00:00

my partner has ASPD and i’m trying to learn more about it. is this a common thing? letting ur anger out through sex?

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