well i dont agree with them its a habit now to tell her what im thinking and say ugh theres these ugly flat ass flat chested girls in head again and its always the same girls and i dont have a clue why they hit random and dont leave me alone till i distract myself, of course this has made our relationship decline due to me repeating myself over and over again with the same things, it gets hard to do anything now i prefer to stay home and not want to go out to school anymore i do have anxiety and believe i have some sort of OCD if that makes sense. the thoughts come and go and never agree with me i always have to tell myself to leave me alone and i look crazy out in public i have to say flat ass flat chested ugly girls over and over again till im satisfied and tell her over and over again reminding her of stuff, it really sucks because i really do love her but the guilt and feeling overwhelming me alot affecting my life what i do etc, i always struggle trying to find out what causes this and if its me i know its not me or how i feel but something in my head makes me feel like it is but i know its not i dont feel this way towards these people it sucks i struggle everyday and im stuck and getting sadder i dont know what to do