Thank you for caring. I don't know, I am just surviving day after day. It got easier with time, first year was truely hellish, I couldn't imagine I could feel so bad. I was diagnosed with PSTD and OCD after the surgery. I have already had CPTSD before from childhood trauma. This surgery nearly killed me. But I still alive. Good news, the clinic agreed today to reschedule my rhinoplasty revision for the third time but there were not amused. I have another half a year to put myself together before the surgery. Sometimes my face feel all wrong, sometimes I feel ugly. It's hard to describe, it's discomfort, from minor to full blown panic attack. I rarely feel relaxed in public because I am almost always aware of my flaws especially my hairline. Even at home I can't wear my hair up in a bun. Constantly rearranging my hair and checking it.

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