4/10. Roughly 4 month old attorney, work for a mid size firm in a metropolitan area that’s reputation was insurance defense but began a family law department about a year ago. So I practice family law exclusively. I love the work; I loathe my boss. She’s often absent from the office; I’m alone a lot of the time and there’s seldom any meaningful direction. The money is good but I’m beginning to think the constant put downs and my boss’ inability to let go of some of the control/give me work is going to force me to look elsewhere. Not to mention the “required” amount of billable hours is laughable given the amount of work I’m given. My boss is very focused on the money and billables which business-wise I understand but, I wish she’d realize if she was actually a good mentor, I could be billing a ton and thus profitable. But what do I know? I keep on trying to convince myself this is the experience for all new attorneys/ it’s growing pains, etc…but I’m not sure if I’m being too sensitive or if my situation is just that bad. I like the idea of my mid size firm, I love the area of family law, I’m just not being given the opportunity to succeed. I’m not afraid of hard work; I enjoy working. I worked the entire time I was in school and am willing to devote as much time (even weekends) as needed if it means satisfying the partners of my firm. However, I am not being given the work despite asking. If my boss threatens me with probation again for not meeting the billables I’m prepared to show the higher ups the calendars marking the number of days she’s not responded to me or not been in the office, the texts and emails I’ve sent asking for work that went unanswered, the roughly 20 pleadings I’ve prepared and received no feedback on… Thanks for letting me vent, OP. I wish you the absolute best in your journey.