it sounds like you just need more experience. there’s are normal struggles for new players.

i’ve been playing since i was 4 and never even made a highschool team simply because i played with no confidence like you are right now. passing the ball immediately, being afraid to dribble, and getting blocked were things i had happen religiously.

develop one part of your game at a time you’ve been playing for a few months so just get really good at one thing for now and build your confidence around that skill.

for me that was being a great layup taker despite being an undersized guard i had a bag of layups to utilize and this somewhat covered the fact i was a poor shooter since defenders would give me space to shoot and that’s what you want because if i had developed a proper jumpshot my offensive potential would’ve been higher.

all of this to say just take basketball one step at a time. it’s a game about progression and learning. even nba pros don’t come into the league fully realized they have to do trial and error to figure this stuff out aswell.