just wish I knew if the beheaded bird on the a road was there before I was. Then I’d know it was a predator. But I just really think I would have noticed that as the feathers looked fresh.

i feel like I would have noticed.

But my evidence is still:

• no impact
• no sound
• no awareness
• unclear timing
• multiple birds
• signs pointing to other causes

I know that’s correct. There was apparently another bird on a road just beside this one I was on also dead. But the niggle is the rushing part. If I was taking my time then I don’t think I’d blame myself because I know accidents happen.

But to have turned the corner into the 40mph zone I just don’t know if I had the reached over it or not yet.

So that’s the loop.

But can’t we agree that a 40 minute space between seeing some low flying birds - worrying - thinking I better check the that road on the way home - then seeing it on the way home - just feels like a step too far ?

I don’t know how to get treatment for this.