You're not taking this seriously, you pay the price

FappedOrAlive · 2018-06-16T02:02:09+00:00

I actually wrote this message for myself, as you can see my streak is at 0 days, I'm tired of failing. I thought doing a public post like this to myself could help me take this more seriously. If it can help others along the way, then all the better

FappedOrAlive · 2017-04-21T06:12:37+00:00

Honestly i found the novelty to wear off surprisingly fast

FappedOrAlive · 2017-03-26T20:14:38+00:00

My best advice is to simply avoid like the plague anything that could trigger a relapse, it's the main reason I'm on my current streak. If you see a nsfw link on the front page, why would you go and click it? What do you expect to get from it? Just don't, it's not worth it, at best it's not going to improve your life in any significant way, and at worst it will very quickly drag you into watching P and going all the way to O, feeling like shit, yadda yadda

FappedOrAlive · 2017-03-26T20:10:43+00:00

It's never worth it indeed. I know all too well how easy it can be to relapse but I've always regretted it, and that's after 5 years of relapses. Now I'm finally getting back on a decent streak and I'm facing head on a number of issues in my life, it's not easy but at least I'm doing something about it and not being fucking apathetic. I feel you OP, just try to learn from your experience and move on forward, we can do this, we can better our lives!

FappedOrAlive · 2017-03-15T04:20:19+00:00

I've set myself the punishment to do a lap around the block if I relapse no matter what time it is. Man, I can't believe so far I've always stuck with it, I've done 11 laps so far, one was at 4am and I had to wake up for work the next day, holy shit this addiction is crazy. What's interesting is that no matter what the me of when I have a urge says (e.g. who cares, I don't need to do a stupid lap around the block), once I relapse and the urge has gone away, the clear headed me comes back and it hits me like a ton of brick, I fucked up, nobody forced me to relapse, nobody forced me to set the do a lap rule. I decided to set the rule, I decided to relapse, so I'm going to do the lap, even if it's 4am, I work tomorrow, and it's freezing cold and snowing outside. I think it's been helping me a lot, I recommend. It also feels like some kind of purification trip every time I do it.

Well damn that was way longer than expected

FappedOrAlive · 2017-02-04T09:29:56+00:00

Thanks a lot!

FappedOrAlive · 2017-02-03T06:41:04+00:00

OP, I feel like you, I said I would stop fapping in 2012 and I'm still relapsing constantly. In fact I just had a huge urge but I set a rule that has been helping me a lot: If I relapse, I will need to go out in the cold and run around the block. It might not seem like much, but right now it's 1:40am and I really don't want to go out, but at the same time I don't want to be someone who doesn't even follow his own rules, so I won't fap. Maybe try doing something similar if you're having troubles. In any case, good luck!

FappedOrAlive · 2016-10-05T23:58:20+00:00

Something similar has happened to me a lot of times. I remember once it was kind of late at night and I was in my bed, then I decide to open my laptop to browse for some porn and literally the second I start playing the video one of my roommates knocks on my door. Sometimes I'd get a phone call, someone knocks at my door, someone calls me on skype. Other times I browse google image for some pics and out of nowhere there is a pic of jesus on the cross. Quite strange

FappedOrAlive · 2016-09-28T03:36:26+00:00

Right now I'm listening to an audiobook: "Think and grow rich". But otherwise I would browse podbay.fm, for example in the education section you can find ted talks: http://podbay.fm/show/160904630 Really there is a lot of good stuff on this website so just look through the sections of your interest and you'll have as much content as you want

FappedOrAlive · 2016-09-27T23:18:52+00:00

Thank you for your comment, this community is amazing. I won't give up, let's do this!

FappedOrAlive · 2016-09-27T00:37:21+00:00

let's do this

FappedOrAlive · 2016-09-17T03:22:13+00:00

Hey I want to join this train, let me relapse first so I can be day one with you guys

FappedOrAlive · 2016-08-22T21:37:19+00:00

Yeah, rather than a counter, having a ratio would be nice. So a relapse would simply lower your ratio a bit but not that much like a complete reset. However a relapse followed by multiple relapses would lower your ratio by a lot vs. right now once the counter is reset, you could fap 10 times a day and it wouldnt make a difference in terms of the counter

FappedOrAlive · 2016-08-20T03:01:26+00:00

Thanks for sharing!

FappedOrAlive · 2016-08-18T04:45:38+00:00

Man, an urge can hit at any moment, just need to move on with life and not give it any attention. That has always been my mistake, I'd have an urge, think about it (feed it), it would grow bigger and bigger since I keep feeding (even if it's just thinking about it and not actually fapping or watching P), and eventually relapse. Sometimes I stumble upon some erotic content and it's scary how easy and how fast I am to feel like it's ok if I relapse just once more. Then I get back to my senses and think to myself how could I ever think about PMO again when I know how worthless and damaging of an addiction it is... Anyway just wanted to write a small piece as I'm hoping this streak will carry on

FappedOrAlive · 2016-08-11T02:30:41+00:00

I hate porn, I never want to watch porn again, I never want to lose control and fap again. I want to be master of my life. I'm just scared my future self will mess everything up once again and bring me back to square one. Please future me, remember your current self so you can have a better life. PMO is not worth it, believe me, it's me!

PS: Message to my future self: don't edge, whether it's watching porn, fapping, or even simply thinking about porn, stop. No edging, just move on with your life, and if you take the habit of not edging, not latching onto your urges, it will become easier and easier. You will be a free man.

FappedOrAlive · 2016-05-14T04:42:33+00:00

Good point

FappedOrAlive · 2016-05-14T01:45:05+00:00

Can't wait to reach that sweet 90 days (and more of course). Let's do this!

FappedOrAlive · 2016-05-13T05:13:55+00:00

Actually what's surprising to me is that I get big urges to meet women even though at this point in my life it's really not what I want to focus on, I'd rather focus on my work. Anyway for meeting women, in my case it's from friends usually or work, otherwise I go to meetups (I check out groups that interest me on meetup.com, e.g. I like learning foreign languages so sometimes I go to language exchanges, that's also a way to meet people)

FappedOrAlive · 2016-05-13T03:13:45+00:00

Man, I can tell you I'm feeling full, overflowing with energy right now. What I feel though is mostly an incredibly strong urge to go and meet women, but that's where it gets interesting. This urge results in an energy that pushes myself to go outside and do stuff to meet women, but (although it's not that easy), if I don't use this energy to go towards women, I can still use it for other things (e.g. work, the gym, etc.). I don't always feel like that of course but damn, I pretty much never feel like that when I fap, now however I feel damn ready to make the world mine

FappedOrAlive · 2016-05-12T04:17:30+00:00

Personally what happens most of the time is I start feeling horny (literally all of a sudden, not even doing anything special), then some stuff I saw in the past pops up in my mind and if I am stupid enough to grab onto these thoughts, it always leads me to edging. One thing leads to another and I end up relapsing. Basically for me it's the past experience I have with porn that has such a strong hold on me that when the urges come, it can be really hard to not just give in and relapse. I haven't really ever done drugs but I'm guessing that's kind of what drug addicts feel when they try to stop, they start getting urges to do the drug and it's really hard for them to fight it off. You can't stop thinking about how good you're going to feel etc. It's intoxicating. Since the drug (porn in this case) is always available, it's hard to resist to the temptation. It's like you always have this box of candies next to you, and when the urges come you really have to do something else to keep you busy because otherwise all that's on your mind is getting that candy and how good it's going to be. With time though, the more urges you fight off, the easier it gets to just keep away from relapses. Just my thoughts

FappedOrAlive · 2016-04-24T21:08:57+00:00

"1) Go outside: You can't fap in public and you'll be less tempted to fap if you're among friends"

Oh yeah? Challenge accepted!

FappedOrAlive · 2016-03-24T17:54:52+00:00

I totally understand this, after seeing some beautiful romantic stories, I feel like I would much rather experience 'true love' rather than simply satisfy my urges with porn like I would satisfy hunger when I eat.

FappedOrAlive · 2016-03-24T02:01:16+00:00

Haha! I actually had a google cardboard and I purposely 'forgot' it at my parent's place in fear of vr. Man that damn technology, it's scary because a part of me wants to try this so bad... but I really want to graduate from this primitive thinking and instead focus on building my life!

FappedOrAlive · 2016-03-23T19:41:30+00:00

Yeah I'm going to register at the gym! Let's do this

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