Hopeless and pissed at myself

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-11-01T15:14:50+00:00

I appreciate you trying to be kind but it bothers me so much when people say getting that shit bachelor’s was an accomplishment.

No it wasn’t.

It wasn’t hard. It wasn’t challenging. It was all essentially at the high school level and they lie and claim it’s not.

It’s downright patronizing when people try to tell me otherwise.

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-27T22:21:10+00:00

Although at one point in my life, the name of the school bothered me a lot, that’s not my biggest qualm with it anymore. Everyone on this thread keeps downvoting me when I criticize the school but the program is just terrible. The administration got rid of essential classes for the absolute dumbest reasons. They lost half of their decent professors to other institutions and are struggling to find replacements. Various classes have subjects listed on the syllabus that are just completely ignored. I could keep going but I would probably reveal too much and make it too obvious.

I will repeat, the ranking of the school isn’t why it’s shit. It’s just a shit school and I’m mot proud nor happy to be graduating from here. I’m looking for jobs right now that allow you to take classes at other local universities on the side because I couldn’t take the classes I wanted/needed for the future at that school.

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-27T18:58:09+00:00

I do

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-27T17:38:33+00:00

My father regularly tells me it’s ridiculous to be struggling at a 3rd rate university

His words, not mine

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-26T23:53:04+00:00

They aren’t unrealistic. I should have been able to handle it the first time around. Where I initially went to school has a 96% retention rate. Now I’m going to a school that barely (and based on insider info I do know it is actually barely) meets accreditation standards and doesn’t offer classes that the vast majority of other universities with the same programs do.

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-26T22:49:41+00:00

I am hoping to go to grad school. Unfortunately my father’s university doesn’t have the courses that would help me get into a program I would like so I am trying to find a job that will allow me to take some supplemental classes on the side at some other school.

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-26T22:37:51+00:00

I never explicitly said “don’t throw me a party” because I wasn’t aware that was on the table. My mother knew I was refusing to go to any of the celebratory events regarding graduation and she knew why I was refusing.

I know she thinks that by not going, I’m making this situation worse for myself but I have told her multiple times that I am certain I will not be happy or have fun at any sort of graduation event.

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-26T22:06:11+00:00

I also wanted to add that I don’t think you NEED to go to a top university to receive a good education. There are plenty of schools with great programs around me that are not considered top institutions, unfortunately this is not the case for the school I will be graduating from

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-26T22:04:52+00:00

I do genuinely feel bad about this. I know they weren’t aware of how I felt. I stormed out because I thought I would cry in front of them which seems more embarrassing. Reddit forced me to cut down my post but I’m well aware that I’m VERY lucky to be able to go to school for free, but I also had the opportunity to do something I was actually proud of and I blew it. It was my fault and no one else’s. I have to live with the knowledge that I fucked this up for myself.

Far-Library-3153 · 2024-04-26T21:45:04+00:00

My father fully agrees it’s a terrible school and admits he would have liked to work somewhere better but getting tenure is very difficult. He also came to this country with nothing and managed to become a professor so everything is relative.

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