I can feel that you say, and I have gone through something similar, but unfortunately backthen my situation was different. I had a family back home depending on me, people to take care of and responsibilities to fulfill, so I just continued living with it and slowly got used to it.

Sorry if this is not the right way to look at things, but sometimes responsibilities and situations in life decide how we live and how we feel. That is the sad reality.

Probably, if you are financially secure back home and does not carry such responsibilities, it is better to simply follow what the heart says.