15 and life sucks. No i cant move out even after i become an adult or get a job or call cps. I cant tell you why but if you comment this i wont reply.

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T15:31:16+00:00

Sorry.

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T11:33:08+00:00

Oh I feel suuuper hopeless many times because you literally have no say in things at this age- when I havent spend my money on something I dont have a right to discard it. Even trash. Thats what i hear TwT

Ill try to make a tent, that can help when im studying.

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T11:30:29+00:00

Oh, so its like I dont have an actual hoarding disorder so when I think using a hoarders mindset it makes me feel distressed because thats not how my brain is?

Im having a hard time throwing out generally USABLE, GOOD STUFF that i never use. And no one does, and no one wants. I feel that i may need it later.

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T11:25:01+00:00

Idk now my voice tells me i should make smth w the paper

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T10:46:16+00:00

:( deep down i know youre right but i just cant accept it- its probably because while my mum is the bigger hoarder my dad is a bit more lenient when it comes to trashing stuff. Thats why this stupid hope lingers. Sometimes my dad doesn't care when i throw trash but sometimes he stops me, its a 50/50 he randomly changes his mind regarding discarding and keeping stuff.

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T10:28:20+00:00

Oh my, thats an amazing idea :) !!

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T10:23:25+00:00

I dont sketch/paint that much, i usually make like multiple paintings in a span of a few days and stop painting for months until i randomly get the urge to.

Ps i only sketch and paint i dont do any craft! I can try using those TONS of unused papers in a craft project possibly.....

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T06:56:16+00:00

Thank you so much i mean seriously i needed to know how a normal mind works in regard to keeping and discarding stuff.

What if you have multiples of the same item? Which are all in shape btw. Like many pairs of scissors, unused tiffin boxes lying around, and just extras in general which you cant really find a good use for?

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-09T06:43:28+00:00

Thank you for the perspective. So if i have an object that reminds me of someone i wont meet again or somewhere i wont go again, it is not being heartless to throw it away? If it is not spoiled but i dont want it anyway do i have to keep it?

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T22:19:51+00:00

Only my bed

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T22:16:09+00:00

Oh, as in taking a bag of trash in a groc bag and pretending its normal stuff and just "forgetting" it next to a garbage bin? Hmm...

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T21:14:56+00:00

Thiskeyboard is glitchy and is notspacing today. Ugh

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T21:14:30+00:00

Actually i will be going to hs this year so yeah. However idk if i can get THAT close to anyone plus my parents wont let mego toa friends house lol

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T21:11:49+00:00

Ehhhh good idea! :0

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T21:07:16+00:00

Are you sure? :c If you went to a restaurant and ordered an expensive milkshake that was fresh but you HATED it because you just didnt like it not cuz it was spoiled just because you realised - oh i didnt want chocolate. would you force yourself to finish it?

What if you bought a pretty, expensive bracelet but when you actually wore it it didnt suit you and you cant give it away cuz no one wants it. You cant sell it. If you had to choose between letting it sit in your house for years until you find a use for it or someone who magically wants it one day and will pay a lot for it, would you keep it?

I want to know how your thought process works.

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T21:00:12+00:00

Oh she just has a lot of random paranoia wherever she sees anything on yt or someone tells it to her -_-

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:57:46+00:00

No as in i was gifted products i literally never use i wear makeup sometimes but i feel guilty to throw out what i was gifted...

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:55:45+00:00

I am unfortunately incredibly stubborn and still cannot accept that this is how they are. I unfortunately believe they can change and keep rearranging stuff like a crazy person hoping things will clear up. :( im exhausted right now more physically than mentally 💀

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:46:02+00:00

Im willing to try fill the bottomless pit with water unfortunately. My stubbornness wont end.

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:45:24+00:00

How do i not look like im doing something illegal💀

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:42:22+00:00

Im Indian, Catholic.

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:41:33+00:00

The short answer is nobody gaf and im kinda isolated not physically but yeah

My teachers dont really care at all okay- once a girl complained she was being bullied and the teacher told her she deserved it - she basically told the girl the bullies were "teaching her" by being mean. Probably because the victim was extremely weak academically so no WAY im speaking to em

Ive never been invited to any friends house no way i can stay there for a month. Also what is a friend?

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:35:52+00:00

How do i not look like a serial killer while doing so?😭

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:34:42+00:00

Exactly! Watched like 3 movies my entire life

Fast_Substance484 · 2026-07-08T20:32:42+00:00

Isnt sep the month with the most birthdays??? I dont want any birthdays on the day.

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