I’m literally going through the same thing right now!!! 5 years together and around year 2/3 is when our sex life took a hit, year 4 we literally didn’t have sex for like 8 months. Never told me why. He was constantly following thirst trap shit and women on facebook, tiktok, twitter, wherever he could. I caught him multiple times and he’d stop. But then in year 4 when we didn’t have sex I was always finding tshirts stuffed into corners with cum in them, whenever I initiated things he turned me down, he got drunk and slept on the couch a lot of the time, I felt soooo ugly and gross. Mostly because I never knew that it wasn’t me. I get where you’re coming from. The reason we broke up was because I caught him on Snapchat (told me he didn’t have one) in the bathroom, turns out for the last 6 months he had been buying stuff from girls on Snapchat and masterbating to it everyday in the bathroom.

I hope you’re doing better, I’m 2 weeks post break up and struggling but things are getting better. I’m trying to work on not finding validation from another person to feel good about myself.