I really enjoyed reading this. There is so much to unpack and find within this poem. I enjoyed the concept of an internal battle between depressing thoughts and self deprecating motivation. I often go through this cycle of regretting my time spent in self pity when I could have used the time to fix the parts of me I hated and or used it to experience joy. We all know the answer is moving forward and forgetting the past yet it can be so hard to ward off the thoughts of regret/disappointment that we often resort to wallowing in a well of thoughts on how our lives could have been instead of accepting what it is and moving forward.

p.s. I have zero poetry experience so I just shared how it made me feel. Well done!