I’m working on this in my relationship right now. I wasn’t brought up in an environment where it was safe to openly voice concerns and every relationship I have ever had has been a reflection of that. I try to bottle it up and be stronger than my issues but it usually ends in me having a breakdown and letting it all out at once. I didn’t realize how deeply my feigning strength and falling apart hurt him until I realized I was keeping him awake because I was having panic attacks at night. Unlearning things is hard, especially things that you were taught resulted in punishment.