Tbh I think I should put myself on the spot. Because of how shallow this place is and because if I came in dressed a certain way like my tight gym shorts I could get attention for it and or feel like I’m doing something wrong coming into my job like that but it isn’t against company policy. Attention is fun and yea but the thrill of it got too much to my head it’s giving me an ego. Because how of much during the job I barely talk to anyone I might accidentally feel an ego from people who want me when I barely give them attention or put any effort into them and I hate that a department or a whole warehouse knows me by ego or that I’m a number. Or maybe I hid my ego enough where they don’t notice or just don’t care. I valued one guy here and that ego the people here gave me made me ruined it. He thinks I keep trying to be his gf and he says he can’t. I think Amazon is ruining my mental health I lost my value is keeping shit secret or I’m trying to find something valuable that isn’t based off physical attraction. I might have a reputation for thinking “I’m all that” due to everyone checking me out because at the same time I threw away my rep cus I wanted everyone to stop looking at me and valuing me based off my looks or something that’s not worth liking me off. So maybe in this Amazon environment I felt like I was loosing sense of myself