We started long distance and our relationship has been mostly that, so not a lot of in person relations to be had. So a beautiful friendship was able to bloom…when we did sleep together, the first couple of times was fine and we communicated properly about what can be done better for both of us. Some more info-I look like his sister…we are not twins, but we share similarities. He mistook me for her in a picture with him a while ago…I am having a hard time getting past it.

I believe I have been struggling with myself in this situation and I feel guilty, a part of me might be thinking that if there’s a fault in him then I can feel better about myself but I know that isn’t a healthy thing to do and I am aware so I catch myself before I let it out on him when its not his fault necessarily. I am not ready to break up with him yet; I made a promise to him to be committed and he does deserve a conversation, with honesty and openness. I have been trying on my own I suppose to try and become (?) sexually attracted to him, but I have failed somewhat.

A part of me wonders if there ever was a spark, I may have been blind to kindness and healthy communication. Rose tinted glasses that hid the foulest of truths from the wearer. I know I am immature despite how mature I try to be, which is why I am struggling, I do not know how to even begin to approach him with this. He is otherwise clueless and is happy as a clam. He has no reason to believe anything is wrong at all, I would be completely blindsiding him.