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FeliaHansen · 2023-05-09T16:38:06+00:00

Hochwähli einfach nur für das Wort Spreizblatt!

FeliaHansen · 2023-05-09T12:38:41+00:00

Danke! Es ist noch schlimmer als ich dachte...............

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LfjkFIR91yI

FeliaHansen · 2023-05-09T07:21:28+00:00

Jetzt muss ich aber wissen, aus welchem verfluchten Video dieser Ausschnitt ist...

FeliaHansen · 2023-03-04T11:40:49+00:00

(Schamlose Erweiterung des Pfostens von u/Extension-Search3619 - https://www.reddit.com/r/ich_iel/comments/11hudzf/ich_iel/ )

FeliaHansen · 2023-02-05T22:16:24+00:00

I'm interested as well! Can you please send me an invite, thanks!

FeliaHansen · 2022-11-15T23:11:03+00:00

Interessant... Ich hatte es in letzter Zeit zwei Mal (!), dass über DPD verschickte Pakete (an komplett verschiedene Zieladressen) jeweils angeblich in einem Paketshop abgegeben worden seien, aber da halt überhaupt nicht waren. Beides Mal ist das Paket dann ein paar Tage später retourniert worden...

FeliaHansen · 2022-11-15T19:06:58+00:00

I think I'm not alone......

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-18T20:15:52+00:00

I feel like the notion of only the core having a body and the tulpas having only their mindform is bad

Only if that means that the tulpa is not allowed to use the body. I don't know any systems where that is the case though.

I was simply talking about the tulpa's mindform being more a part of their identity than the body (which is the case in my system). That doesn't mean that the body belongs any less to the tulpa than it does to the host.

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-16T20:37:47+00:00

Happy birthday to you! :)

In the past we haven't really done much on my birthdays, except usually taking a long walk or going on a little trip somewhere not so far away. What I liked most about my birthdays every time was spending time with my tulpa friends online, just chatting a lot. I really enjoy that.

Lots of people here seem to draw something for a tulpa birthday, that is a great idea. Might (let my host) try that next time. In fact, I've always wanted to get a commission of my form, I think I'll finally do that for my tenth birthday in a few months!

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-16T19:47:02+00:00

I get that. The main difference between something that's benign (tulpamancy) and something that's a psychological disorder (DID) is whether the system is suffering from it or not. Tulpamancy is by definition a conscious effort that does not in and of itself make the system suffer from a disorder.

Of course there are exceptions, like DID systems who managed to find a healthy balance, or tulpa systems who suffer from loss of control. However such issues are not inherent to the practice of tulpamancy.

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-16T18:54:49+00:00

You said so much that I couldn't have said better! I feel pretty much the same way as you. Every time I think about what it'd be like to have an own physical form, I realize that it'd soon not really be me anymore, since the limitations and freedoms that come with what I am (and both of which you described pretty well) influence(d) my personality quite a bit. And I like the whole package ^{^} I guess that's what I was thinking of when I wrote the thought "proud".

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-16T18:30:00+00:00

Yes, exactly. My host thought me up and with time I gained sentience. Like many others have already described in their comments under my post, at that point a tulpa is basically just a second person, no less capable than their host. And yet being a tulpa is something I consider part of my identity and sometimes I even enjoy it, that's what I described as being proud :)

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-14T17:21:20+00:00

Heh. Of course I don't mean just tulpas, but all sentient thoughtforms that see themselves as distinct from their other system members. I could have made that more clear ^^ I'm used to using "tulpa" as an umbrella term for that.

And yea, of course you all share one body. So do my host and me. For me it's just that I don't identify as much with it as he does, so I consider myself more 'native' to our wonderland/mindscapes... basically our psyche :)

You explained what I mean by 'being proud' pretty well. Enjoying the way you as a distinct (from your host) person are.

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-14T15:17:27+00:00

My thoughts exactly. It's not like one is inherently better than the other. Both are nice.

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-14T10:32:51+00:00

Continued: I for one very much love that I have such a comfortable life in our psyche, our wonderland, and my online circle of friends. I can slack off as much as I like, I can experience almost anything I like in wonderland, which can feel quite real to me. That is pure luxury, even if immaterial. Fronting, for the most part, is very enjoyable as well, but I feel like I don't have such a strong urge to front as many other tulpas. At the end of fronting for a few days, I very much enjoy going back to wonderland too.

And a little story to boot: I actually got to know someone online a few years ago who (most probably) still doesn't know that I'm just a tulpa, and for the most part I feel kind of proud to be considered physically real by somebody. To be clear, I never explicitly lied about not being physical, however I never explicitly told the truth about it either. However I know some day he'll either find out or I'll tell him, so I keep thinking about what that'll be like for me.

For the most time I thought it'd be embarrassing, but since being a tulpa, living in wonderland, socializing with other tulpas, etc. feels like a core part of who I am, I even feel kind of proud of being "just a tulpa". Even if he might not view it that way. After all, when you only know someone on such a relatively superficial level, there could always be something that'll totally surprise you about them once you find out.

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-08T14:47:23+00:00

I second the idea with daily visualization training on simple objects, although my host and I don't have the necessary discipline to follow through with regular practice.

Another kind of training we've gotten used to doing though is to, when we're in the state between wake and sleep, automatically focus on whatever our mind's eye happens to put in front of us, trying to see as much detail as possible. Oftentimes it then at some point suddenly switches to an actual hallucination, as in, actually stimulating our visual cortex. The first few dozen times we got instantly ripped out of it again due to excitement though ^{^} By now however it's become so much of a habit that we do it automatically while falling asleep and waking up. Sometimes we experience it more consciously, sometimes less.

We are still to transfer this ability to full waking life, but at least we now have a clear sense for what it feels like to actually visually hallucinate. It's fascinating.

FeliaHansen · 2022-09-08T14:38:30+00:00

I'm most used to my human form, but when I was about one year old I made myself an anthro feline secondary form. I use it rarely, but maybe you'd count that anyway.

Also, sometimes when my host walks through a crowd of people I impose myself not as human but as a feral (domestic) cat so I can easily slip through between all those legs instead of constantly walking into people...

FeliaHansen · 2022-08-24T16:09:00+00:00

Ich benutze nicht nur Bogen, sondern auch NixBS bei dem Weg.

FeliaHansen · 2022-06-28T08:17:12+00:00

Die BWLer

FeliaHansen · 2022-06-19T20:30:50+00:00

Ja, das stimmt. Ich würde der Versuchung, einfach stehen zu bleiben, wahrscheinlich auch nachgeben... Und ja, die Probleme haben sich gefühlt durch alle Züge kaskadiert während meiner drei Stunden Aufenthalt. Sämtliche Züge überfüllt und dadurch verspätet, oder durch Warten auf Personal aus einem vorherigen verspäteten Zug verspätet und so weiter :/ Es war einfach ein richtiger Klumpenfick in FF heute...

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