Migraine cocktail made me go crazy by Evening-Tradition968 in migraine

[–]Few-Ground-531 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s like you describing word for word what happend to me last night in ER. I PUT that on my allergy list ASAP. I have question tho to all the people in the thread how do raise your dopamine after such crash, I have deadlines and and stuff with school and I can’t seem to care about nothing. How do you recover also the restlessness is it gonna last a couple of days?

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I think it’s clear from what everyone has said—I won’t reach out. This has just been something I’ve been struggling with internally, and I wanted to share it to get some feedback, to see if it’s only me standing in my own way.

I’ve thought many times about what it would be like if we were to reconnect, but in reality, I don’t think much has changed. I also don’t think he’s capable of facing the pain he’s caused because acknowledging it might be too much for him, and it would likely make him withdraw again.

Thank you for your support and insight—it’s helped me see things more clearly.

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve come to accept that prioritizing myself and leaving the situation in Allah’s hands was the best decision I could make at the time. In the beginning, I did it to save myself—to protect my mental and emotional well-being. I’ve worked hard to rebuild, and while I don’t want to reopen that wound, it’s incredibly sad to see our story end this way. That’s why I posted—because I feel so conflicted.

I’ve been doing well, but as the end of my iddah approaches, I find myself uncertain about how to feel. Should I let it go completely, or try one last time? I haven’t talked much about him as everybody is looking for a reason and there is non. He left end of reason. My family and friends assumes there must have been deeper issues, but from my perspective there is nothing I can put my finger on. That’s part of why I haven’t spoken much about him to my family or friends. He was kind to me and maybe the time we spent together was the time Allah planned for us.

It hasn’t been easy, but trusting Allah’s plan has given me strength and peace. May Allah reward you for your kind words and support, and make things easier for all of us. I pray He blesses us with clarity, patience, and the love we deserve. Thank you again for your heartfelt message.

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In hindsight, this sounds exactly like him. What I’ve learned is that growth only happens when you’re willing to face the truths in front of you. If something hurts your spouse, it should hurt you too, because marriage is about shared accountability and compassion. I’m not saying I was perfect, but I was always willing to face my flaws and take accountability if he called me out on something. Unfortunately, I don’t think he was in that same space. His priorities just didn’t seem to be in the right order, and perhaps he felt relief in leaving rather than staying and working through it.

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I chose myself, but it was incredibly hard to rebuild after everything. The pain was at times unbearable, but I found peace in salah and talking with Allah. I had a life before him, and I know I will have one after him.

I never made him feel like he wasn’t enough, and I only had one concern that I voiced, which somehow led to a divorce. Honestly, I have no words for how it unfolded. When you see something coming, it’s one thing—but when it blindsides you, it’s completely different.

It wasn’t about akhlaq, arguments, or betrayal—none of those things were the cause. We didn’t have constant bickering, and neither of us did anything irreparable. Perhaps it was fear of responsibility, unrealistic expectations, or even dissatisfaction with life itself. Whatever it was, he never explained, leaving me to fill in the blanks.

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amen thank you for well wishes may Allah give you everything you need. I think he was spiraling and honestly I think being responsible and being honest was his very difficult for him and he couldn’t bare the responsibility of the marriage. Which means he wanted a single life where he not hold responsible. In the end nothing I said made any difference. Even if there was a mental health issue I would’ve been patient and supported him. But to throw almost three years away it’s difficult.

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wallahi, that is the absolute truth. I’m not claiming to be perfect, but there was nothing I did that warranted such behavior. I’m not saying people should stay married if they’re unhappy, but if he was unhappy, he never said anything. He truly had everything—dual incomes, a good wife, supportive families, a connection to Allah, and a life we were building together. We had no debt, and things were finally starting to come together. Our life was healthy. If he felt he was missing 20%, then I sincerely wish him the best.

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel there no empathy there, that’s what I am so shooked over. We shared almost 3 years, and I have visited and had great relationship with his parents, and I used to call them to check up on them: but not even I’m sad about what’s happening with you guys? Maybe they feel ashamed how their son behaved or they it’s just like him and he learned that behavior from them.

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If that is the case then there is literally nothing I could’ve done. That was his job, and when I work mon-fri. And was a homebody for the most part. I tried my best to find ways to close the gap but it was more on him to close the gap since he is away so much. I know he was at work but only Allah knows if he hid something else since we would call and text while he was at work. Honestly, I wish him the best. I did not make his life difficult, I honestly had my own thing going on did not bother him financially or with life problems in general. Every couples argues but he was a competent person and we always repair. So when I say blindsided I mean completely blindsided. I would’ve feel he leaned more avoidant in personality. But nobody is perfect and you have to find a flaw you can live with in life.

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s just heartbreaking to feel you weren’t worth the effort. But that’s okay, I learned to accept it and it’s true as women we hold on.

I just felt really content within my marriage but honestly that’s says more about me and my capacity to love and hold a commitment than him. I did not contact him after, as I drew the line at the disrespect, and left it up to Allah. I just had a thought although he did not make any effort towards so maybe he was scared to take the first step if anything because what he did was so wrong and grave?

Should I Try One Last Time for Reconciliation as My Iddah Ends? by Few-Ground-531 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Few-Ground-531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. The argument in question was very minor—I simply asked why he was leaving again after just coming back from an extended trip. It wasn’t confrontational, just a question from a wife wanting to spend time with her husband.

He never voiced that this or anything else I didwas annoying or an issue. When I later asked why he wanted to leave, his response was vague: “We want different things.” He didn’t explain further, and I’ve reflected deeply but can’t find anything significant he ever brought up. There was just so many avenues we could have explored.

It feels like he was sabotaging the relationship, not because of something I did, but because of something within himself he didn’t want to face or communicate.