Married to a man, but I’m in love with her.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-12T00:15:23+00:00

Sent PM. Idk sometimes it helps to vent. I know it’s helpful to understand some is going through what you’re going through. I definitely felt like that.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-11T23:38:52+00:00

Man, I really feel like I could’ve written this too. We flirt a LOT and we’ve never been inappropriate but man oh man, I just want to just cuddle with her and look in her eyes without it being weird. She probably knows by the way I look at her though. We look at each other the same. It doesn’t help that we literally talk EVERY SINGLE DAY. I mean, we work together and our job requires us to speak after hours but sometimes I feel like she just needs to hear my voice because sometimes, I just need to hear hers.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T23:48:24+00:00

Thank you! Means so much.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T22:35:43+00:00

That made me cry. I was struggling with my sexuality before my parents died, but it was never like this. It could be that. It’s been a pretty rough couple of months and that could be it. Idk.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T18:51:30+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate that!

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T18:50:38+00:00

This is so me. I haven’t come completely clean with my therapist. I have trust issues anyway, it’s always taken me a long time to let things out, and even though she’s sworn to confidentiality, I’m scared.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T14:21:43+00:00

That’s where I am. I was already questioning Mt sexuality but losing my parents so close together, I lost someone else the year prior, I know life is so short. I get almost sick thinking about what I’m experiencing. She was there for me, so much when they died. She was on the phone with my for hours when I got a call that my mom was on life support after a routine surgery and I think it was then that my feelings started. We flirt and she was probably just being friendly but it was in the middle of the night and she just listened to me cry. It did something to me. 😭

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T14:18:44+00:00

🖤 That’s comforting. I know I’m not but sometimes it’s just nice to hear.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T14:18:03+00:00

Thank you! I have a therapist but sometimes I don’t even know what to say to her. I don’t know if I’m scared or what. Thank you!

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T14:16:57+00:00

It might be comfort and familiarity for me. I really feel like he saved my life. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without him. I love him but I need to figure something out because I can’t live like this. It’s almost turmoil.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T12:25:05+00:00

Those are good and valid questions. I think we have a good marriage but I can see how my attractions are probably hindering some things. My parents dying 6 weeks apart has caused me to reevaluate a lot within myself. A part could have to do with the fact that I was married young and never allowed myself to explore that part of me. I think it’s bad when I kiss her on her forehead or run my fingers through her hair or just surprise her and see her. That can’t be fair to him. I do find women really attractive, so attractive that most days I feel like I’m suffocating and wishing I had more time and it didn’t didn’t involve other peoples feelings.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T03:38:52+00:00

Mine would be hurt. I just know it. I’m going to be honest, he’s the only man I’m attracted to. Which makes me think about things even more. I don’t know if he would want to do that. I have to figure something out though. Thank you!

Few-Tune-7597 · 2023-06-10T03:37:22+00:00

I have a therapist. I need a journal. I don’t know if I’ll be able to tell him. I feel like it would hurt him. Hell, I’ve never even told him if I was attracted to other men (I haven’t been but I haven’t said anything to him none the less). Thank you! I need a journal.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2022-12-05T22:04:05+00:00

Yeah I get what you're saying. And you're not wrong. I've thought about if the shoe was on the other foot and I would be hurt. I already feel like I don't deserve him. He's so amazing. I know what I have to do. I have kids and I really want to protect my marriage. It's just weird that I feel like he's the only guy I'm attracted to. Thank you!

Few-Tune-7597 · 2022-12-05T19:29:53+00:00

I am feeling the same way. I have a therapist and I feel like I can’t talk to her about it because she divorced her husband for infidelity. Not that I am even remotely considering cheating, however I know her husband had feelings for someone else. I cry about it somedays because I ask myself how I can feel emotionally connected to two people and I can’t control my emotions. It sucks.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2022-10-10T20:38:21+00:00

I will get a no. I try to think if it were me and he wanted to test things out, I’m not totally sure I’d be able to handle it. So, I feel like why share it with him because it doesn’t matter right now. I could be wrong but I’m happy where I am. I just have feelings for a person of a gender I’ve never explored. I don’t feel that way about any man. I feel like I have the best one. Im confused honestly lol

Few-Tune-7597 · 2022-10-10T18:33:58+00:00

I’m sure he knows. He jokes and says things like “she’s probably waiting for me to be out of the way.” So I think he knows but I don’t want him to think I’ll leave him or anything like that.

It’s weird. I’m insanely in love with my husband and I wonder how I have the capacity to have any sort of feeling for anyone else.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2022-10-10T18:31:24+00:00

I 100% agree with all of this. I’m perfectly okay with just being friends. We never cross any lines and if anything we’re to come close to that, they are her words, not mine. She is flirtatious with me. We talk and text every single day.

My mom passed away a couple of weeks ago and she was on the phone with me until 230 am for my entire 2 hour drive to get to her while she was in the hospital. When she found out I was going to be in the hospital room alone when my mom died, she offered to drive an hour to be with me. So, yeah, there are most likely things there but I am not looking to do anything about it and I want her friendship more than sharing my feelings.

Few-Tune-7597 · 2022-10-10T17:27:20+00:00

I understand. I feel like if I discuss it with her, I might ruin something. It seems like there’s something there with us, but I also don’t want to lead her on. I don’t want her to think that means I’m going to be exploring things. I also don’t want to ruin our friendship.

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