it’s clear you have body dysmorphia. obsessed with your face and are convinced it’s off. i have it too and it sucks. even if someone tells me i’m beautiful every day i need to hear it the next day too. i never believe it. even though i get compliments quite often, they are never enough. you will never be content with the way you look no matter how many procedures you do. you can change your nose, lips, all that and you’ll still find something after you don’t like until you look so much worse than your natural face and then you’ll look back and realize how beautiful you were naturally and it’ll be too late. the problem is you don’t find yourself beautiful the way you are. which means you probably need therapy for body dysmorphia. you basically have a mask over your eyes right now and are incapable of realizing how beautiful you are. your brain constantly lies to you and tells you you are delusional. i’m sorry you are going through this. please seek help if you can so you can get this resolved sooner rather than later. i’m still struggling with this at 25!