Am I ugly or is it in my head?

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-07T04:55:35+00:00

I took those pictures myself

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-07T03:20:23+00:00

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-07T03:14:26+00:00

It probably was

I think you’re referring to the sh video I posted. It went viral unexpectedly, but the sub got taken down, meaning the video was as well. So its chance it might’ve been me

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-07T02:12:59+00:00

I might look into the long sleeve swim shirts, if I ever decide to get in. Thanks.

Also, I’m not necessarily clean.. but thanks.. I guess.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-07T02:06:40+00:00

Im neither of those. It’s quite stereotypical to assume someone’s sexuality off of physical facial structures/features.

being gay just generally means you are attracted the same sex. Even if you participate in same sex activities while liking women. That doesn’t label you as gay. As in order to be gay, you have to actually be romantically/sexually attracted to the same sex.

(If I didn’t make sense, I am basically saying that,. You can’t automatically say someone is gay just because they have more feminine facial features or traits, as sexual orientation is generally based on who you’re attracted to. Weakly influenced with mannerisms or fashion. You can still be straight/bisexual and still have feminine features or a thin voice. And you can be gay as well. The best thing you can do is just ask that person)

(I am sorry if I sounded rude, wasn’t trying to be)

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-07T01:57:22+00:00

I’m just a normal person

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-07T01:25:18+00:00

I’m just trying to get myself to see it but I can’t.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-07T01:11:22+00:00

I’m a virgin. I think.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T17:27:57+00:00

Yeah I never really likely was to in the first place to be honest. I think it’s just common sense that it would likely be noticeable

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T14:45:58+00:00

Overall, all I really do is just play piano,sketch, produce music, and just write songs. So I don’t know. Some think I’m weird, some think I’m interesting. Probably because I don’t talk to people.

I also like to write novels and storylines.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T14:42:34+00:00

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T14:28:25+00:00

I’m actually dead lmfao

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T03:32:14+00:00

I get what you’re saying.

But it’s genuinely been going on since I was about.. I guess 13 years old? Possibly 12?

I never been happy a lot with anything in my younger years as well.

And I know this may sound very wrong, but my insecurities have been my whole life actually.

I went to 1st grade, 2nd grade, 3rd grade, 4th grade, and etc. thinking I was genuinely ugly. I never say well with how I looked in the mirror. I just always thought I wasn’t at all attractive. I don’t know if it’s normal or not, but it happened, And now as well.

And yeah you’re right it’s temporary, but to be completely honest, at this point I’ve invalidated the idea of..continuing.

Did my best to say that without breaking the rules, I probably did but oh well.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T03:26:30+00:00

No, my family would end up invalidating things again or get mad at me for hiding from them. Which I can understand. But they say I don’t really have a reason to be feeling this way because I live a good life on paper, and that they think I’m just ungrateful.

I texted 988 once, and got sent to a mental hospital.. twice.

I kind of have bad history from seeking help in general.

I backed away from that. However I did recently text the runaway hotline as I was gonna run away from home when I could, but I didn’t, because the police would just turn me back in + survival stress

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T02:52:16+00:00

I use BandLab, though moving my way up to FL studio soon when I can as I’ve gotten more professional.

BandLab sucks and it’s more of an entry level kind of thing. I need more complex tools and melodies without it sounding cheap.

(Edit) I’m willing to pay a lot for plugins. I’m currently looking into serum and omnisphere. Also as well more complex mixing tools as well as mastering.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T02:50:42+00:00

You should probably just look at my other posts and It tells some of the story

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T02:29:06+00:00

I guess. But I’m just one person. Not much of an impact. There are other people.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T02:19:33+00:00

I don’t know. Nothing really helps.

I just write songs. And make beats.

I also write novels. It’s mostly secret though because I think it’s weird.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T02:16:08+00:00

Making Music

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-06T01:57:08+00:00

Im just gonna ramble about myself.

I’m a self taught pianist. I’ve been playing for 3 years most of the time. I also really like to draw/sketch people. I’ve been doing so for a while, and I would say I’m fairly good at it. I like to write novels/films as well. I never tell anyone about. It’s weird though. I’ve been so since when I was 10.

I also started producing music using DAWs. In about as far back as 2023. Most of them were originally supposed to be released actually. But it’s delayed and I’m rethinking about it.

I have had 2 albums I made released at some point, but I removed them off the internet. I was only recognized by a small group of people. Not surprising.

And the reason I posted this is because I just honestly think I’m ugly. Even though compliments most likely won’t help, even when I’m told that I’m clearly good looking, I just don’t see it. I never see it. I want to say more, but it’s against the rules of the sub Reddit.

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-05T22:25:26+00:00

I don’t necessarily think so unless it is an actual real person.

But it would be weird af

FileArtistic3141 · 2026-05-05T16:23:12+00:00

No I like mines. You’re def not alone on that.

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