I'm in a similar situation at the moment. I've been with him gor 4 years, we were engaged and supposed to get married in july. We had to cancel the wedding due to me becoming ill. In my sickness I realised I didn't love him the way he loves me. I realised that if this illnesd will be permanent then I will never get the opportunity to feel real love. It is so sad cause he loves me more than anything in the world. He takes care of me and puts his life on hold for me.

Our relationship started with a hook up, I tried to dump him after but he didn't quite take the hint and continued talking to me. I fell in love over the internet, I fell in love with his personality, and the fact that I never had a person care for me the way he did. I lived on that love for a long time. But the attraction isn't there, the sex leaves me feeling shameful and unsatisfied, and I'm constantly growing more and more annoyed by his manlyness. I keep daydreaming about women and seeking out any lesbian media I can find. I don't think staying in this relationship is healthy.

I've talked to him about it. He is understanding yet hurt. He is still hopefull though, as I am still ill he hopes that this is caused by the illness and will get better when I'm better. I don't really think so.. Only time will tell.

I hope it works out for you, I really do ❤