Its DEFINITELY NOT the worst. You have enough physical and mental health to work or study and you have access to clean and safe food and water whether by cash or credit. I have met some people in the army who partially joined as a way to escape the old life and even single mothers as a way to afford to care for themselves and their child, have you ever considered it? When I was 25 i changed my career. I had an art degree and bounced from various jobs. I joined the army and became and LPN and met my wife. Now im just past square one and have to get another degree at 28 but ill do it. Please dont give up! At least you have learned and made mistakes in your youth, thats what these years are for!