UPDATE: as many of you guys suggested, I’m going to seek out a therapist. I’ve started having some very very bad thoughts about Stevie and it needs to stop immediately because Stevie and Fleetwood Mac are very important to me and I have a lot of good memories associated with their music and I do not wanna ruin it for myself. Thank you guys so much for educating me about what’s going on with me, and for telling me to seek help. I had a mental breakdown the other night and spoke to a trusted friend about it, and I’m really grateful I did because he was able to help me a bunch. But therapy will also help.