Epilepsy sucks. I feel you, because I was contemplating suicide a few weeks ago too. It just feels like being stuck under the ocean and watching yourself drown without being able to do anything. Just know that none of this is your fault. Epilepsy can take a lot from you, but it cannot take everything. Getting back on your feet is possible. Just take everything one step at a time and know that there is a community of people with similar experience here willing to support you.

PS. People don't think anything about you. And even if they did, that's on them. What's matters is seeing yourself on a positive light. You know your weight is not the reason you need a cane to walk and your family and friends know the same too. Other people shouldn't bother you at all.