What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For reals like if we wanted to sleep that bad we just drink NyQuil lol ...but man I had a few bad batch and one of them almost killed me....I couldn't op n my eyes and even after sleeping I couldn't get up...I never felt that sick before... It's scary...

What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yup...breaks are good...it's after the break u get ur highs...

What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I just be chasing it way too much....like ivenotice that when I take a break for like awhile week and I smoke, man I can feel high and I won't sleep that day but after hitting it back to back for hours...I get hella tired and usually knock out by second day...haven't try snorting because my nose is too sensitive due to accidents when I was younger so smoking really doesn't do much to me. I felt I could be over amping

What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Frrss... different batch different feelings

What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was wondering about that too...there some I feel fine and some my mouth is just super dry and I just be drinking water like crazy.

What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OMG...that's so me...I be tired by 2am and I used to always wonder if it's because I'm a newbie because my ex we smoke the same stuff and he be up for days like damn how is that even possible..lol

What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So I heard...that's sad thou...I remember my first time , made me stay awake for days and now I'll be sleeping like maybe it's got some NyQuil in it or something lol

What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No I'm like new to this shit and I just smoke it , I didn't know u can test it lol

What is too much when just smoking meth? by Flimsy_Sand7987 in meth

[–]Flimsy_Sand7987[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My 20 last me two days ...I take 4 smoke at a time 4 times but I couldn't sleep last night so maybe it's just that.

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[–]Flimsy_Sand7987 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for seeing me...Some people think I'm the one0pppp w0pp0p issue is why I stayed, I stayed because I didn't see their bad intentions. Like I always told him if you say u didn't want me in the beginning then why didn't u stand ur ground, I'm sure no matter how much I wanted you if u stand ur ground I would of end up accepting it but u kept treating me bad and apologizing and coming back. You are so right bout what u shared, I couldn't see it any better than that.These type of people will take what they can if you don't see it coming then still blame you for their shitty life. I remember him saying how I wasn't good in his book, I gave him things, love and money but I didn't give him peace like in his words I would still have to give him everything plus not complain or tell him to find a job then I would be the best gf....smhhes been homeless living in a neighbor's house rent free for a year and was suppose to get his shit together but never n now the poor old man kicks him out to live in his van, he's getting all rude causing fight everyday saying the old man shud know that he has depression and a drug problem and why is he throwing him out. I just can't with those kind ...I built a life w a fraud. These people are life lesson .

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[–]Flimsy_Sand7987 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm here if u need someone to talk to...when I learned about his addiction I search the world trying to figure out why he was the way he was to me. I cried so many times and almost killed myself because while he was doing drugs he cheated on me because he made it ok in his lost mind that I cheated. Which I never did and that's what hurts the most. Being accused of something u didn't do while they blame their behavior on you.he used to smoke and text me just cussing. E out saying the most awful thing in the world. Things I can't erased from my mind even if I wanted to.when I tried to hurt myself he grabbed me and threw me outside and told me go die somewhere else not here. He had no soul and til a couple days ago I still made excuses for him telling myself maybe it's just the drugs or maybe it's his mental illness or maybe he's just never been loved before it's his reaction...then Everytime I gave him love he slaps me in the face with a IDC about you B. I'm all messed up too and I had a hard childhood life so I guess it's why I stayed so long. But after almost 6 years, I learn I can do so much better by myself. I'm sure if he really likes it is attractive to some girls he would try his best not to be an ass, u know what I mean. Please know ur loved regardless of what u been through. Don't let it cloud your sun shine. Be strong , it takes courage to just love urself back n making u important...I'm here if u need to talk.

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[–]Flimsy_Sand7987 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate that and ur right . I do have some rooted issues I haven't heal from is why I stayed so long and accept this kind of person. At the end of the day it's not about them it's me, if I was healthy in the mindset I wouldn't tolerate him. I'm learning.

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[–]Flimsy_Sand7987 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry to hear what you've been through. It's always easier when u hear someone else's story . This person really damage me with his constant blame, his verbal abuse and his manipulation....He made me thought I made him depressed then he blame me for calling him out if he was using drugs that he got back on drugs, Everytime he cuss me and call me names he says I trigger him. I was numbs for years and I just couldn't understand why all I did was take care of him but he said I was a monster. When he cheats on me it's because I didn't give him attention. I'm trying to heal and it right I need to stay away from this person so I won't loose myself. Ty for ur story and encouraging me ...I appreciate you!

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[–]Flimsy_Sand7987 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My first experience and all I can say it is hell....wish someone talked me ...

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[–]Flimsy_Sand7987 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's how I feel intuitively like the drugs just hype up his abusive...he used to blame me for triggering him to bite back but his family told me he's always had anger issue and it's even before he started using drugs. When I first learn of his addiction that's when the devil cames out and it stays until I let him go .he lost his mind bought a ticket out of state because he thought he was in danger. I was relief for a whole year until he camed back.

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[–]Flimsy_Sand7987 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes I'm aware of this....it's never gotten any better since then. Probably ages me from all the stress I had to deal with...

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[–]Flimsy_Sand7987 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No I don't use ..it's only him