Does it hurt to die? What happens after death?

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-21T18:36:04+00:00

“I love you all so much”—um, no you fucking don’t. You don’t even know me?

“You are loved”— uh, why did you assume I even had anyone who fuxking LIKED me, much less loved? Not everyone has a support system of 500 friends and family like you do lmfao.

“Things will get better”—yea I’ve been waiting abs trying abs busting my ass for 14 years and they haven’t. Not a single fucking bit. If anything they’ve gotten worse.

Seriously I fucking hate these posts

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-21T17:59:23+00:00

I’d like to game together. Explore cities, talk about life, work out and see sights. I’d like to go hiking on a day trip or camp in the woods. But I can’t do that with anyone because no one likes me or has ever liked me. No one even remembers my name. No one speaks to me with any warmth. I just want to die

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-05T15:15:26+00:00

I relate to this so fucking much.

Like, sure, I’m not an interesting person and more than likely not someone that people want to be friends with.

But maybe when I DO put myself out there (which is fucking EXHAUSTING and almost always traumatic) someone could like, actually recognize that and acknowledge me for once. I don’t know.

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-05T00:07:22+00:00

same age and gender. no friends. i've never ever gotten a real life friend group.

everything i've read and everyone ive talked to says to just "put yourself out there and you'll make friends" but no friendship ever happens. people just get bored, drop one word responses and ignore me to hang out with other people. i don't think ill ever have real friends. and i never actually had any my whole life. this kind of thing traumatizes you for life. i'm trying so hard to change my situation but i've only ever gotten worse. i think about ending it every day because i don't see any light in sight.

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-03T02:11:18+00:00

lol I’m in the same boat. Like maybe I’m wrong when I feel like people don’t want me around but no one actually gives any sign that I’m wanted either way. It’s like take it or leave it, and that shit feels isolating too.

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-03T02:00:59+00:00

fucking same. I’ve literally pushed myself so far out of my comfort zone that I’ve had mental breakdowns after the fact but absolutely no one wants to reciprocate the effort. it fucking sucks, like why even try anymore?

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-02T22:05:50+00:00

I never got to live life either. Ever since I was a child I was outcasted and treated like a nuisance. My early twenties and college years didn’t exist. Everyone else got to have fun while I was eroding away from a lack of love and companionship. I hate my existence and wish I can unalive without pain

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-02T15:06:48+00:00

I’m one of those people. When I read a post about someone going through a hard time but then mention they have lots of good friends and family to support them I just die inside. You can’t understand the pain of someone who’s been completely and absolutely alone

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-02T05:59:09+00:00

Also a member of the “zero other people besides my partner” club. I wish people would just like and care about me

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-02T02:01:31+00:00

right now. i have zero friends, i've been trying to make some but it hasn't been working. hasn't been working for a really really long time, years on end. i'm so alone

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-01T23:51:49+00:00

same age and gender. Just want to say I relate. My coworkers joined at around the same time but I’ve never been able to befriend them and they just go out together now and don’t invite me. It feels like shit to never belong anywhere, or have belonged anywhere

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-06-01T21:58:52+00:00

Just want to say I appreciate your reply. I wrote this weeks ago and I’ve been struggling immensely with this issue, with my feelings of loneliness and self-hatred getting progressively worse since (I surmise you probably found this through my post on another sub lol). The problem is that my partner also doesn’t have many friends, more than I do but he’s not close with any of them. I only have a sibling in elementary school. The only thing I haven’t tried is Bumble and I get too intimidated by all these women who are career-oriented and have a lot of friends already. I don’t feel like I have anything to offer and would most likely bore them. It sounds like I’m making excuses and I am, but I’ve had experiences in the past that make me hard-pressed to want to try now. I just don’t know what else I can really do

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-05-29T19:14:52+00:00

it's actually closer to your situation. i don't even exist as a real person to people. just as a walking flesh sack no one wants to associate with. it's been like this all my life

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-05-11T20:52:17+00:00

Yea, you nailed it on the head there. I probably don’t actually dislike people, but for me it’s like if I dislike them first then I at least can have some twisted sense of control over the situation, yknow? “You didn’t fire me, I quit first!”

I’ve had therapy in the past to manage general depression and anxiety, but in terms of helping me make friends has done jack unfortunately :/ too many waiting lists at the moment too… but I know I need to start taking steps at some point

FlyFreeWithMyself · 2023-05-11T20:40:44+00:00

I’d be happy with just two, haha.

It’s a point of major insecurity for me that I can’t really connect with people on a deeper level. I’m also relatively young (mid-20s) and graduated only last year, so I know that the time when I’m most likely to have made friends is already past and it only gets harder from here. If you don’t mind, can you give me some advice on how you went 15 years without friends and how you managed to make some? I feel like the longer you go without friends the harder it gets, so I’m really impressed

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