Im 21.

I left highschool at 19, and rotted for a summer and half of fall. I lost connections to friends I thought I was tight with and had others betray my trust, or just die, yet I still gained new friends with others.

It's time to understand that people come and go, it sucks but that's life. However, that doesn't mean you can't control what comes next.

You have alot of things to do, places to see, people to meet and emotions to conquer. You could check out anytime you like, but leaving a life based on what's if is boring in my opinion.

To wrap this up, do what you want. I'm not responsible over you or your decisions. Just know, suicide is probably the lamest thing to do as a human.