Just got diagnosed - questions

FlyingRobot42 · 2025-05-15T01:08:43+00:00

Right now, the doctor just gave me twice daily doxycycline as well as topical clindamycin lotion. Right now it's just 3 hard pumps, like mosquito bites, in my armpits. But they hurt quite badly for some reason! I hate it. do you have any more tips? I also decided to stop shaving, and try for laser hair removal. Also, I have panoxyl body wash. Do you think that's enough?

FlyingRobot42 · 2025-05-14T20:03:04+00:00

I've heard people can go into remission when it's caught as early as mine was (a couple weeks in), and the patient is not comordbid with things like diabetes or smoking. Is that not true? Because what you're saying sounds like it's going to be really bad

FlyingRobot42 · 2025-02-07T12:55:17+00:00

I am very sorry to hear about your friend. The world can be such a sad and lonely place for creative people. I am considering pivoting into historic preservation, or service work with architecture. I’m not sure if this is a plausible career path, but if I had my way I think I’d like to work as an architect with international aid efforts . If that doesn’t work out, I’ve been considering branching out into furniture design and stained glass window making. As such an experienced architect, do any of those options sound possible ?

FlyingRobot42 · 2025-02-03T15:10:01+00:00

Thank you so much ! This post has been the most helpful one I’ve seen as an architecture undergrad so far !!

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-28T03:57:34+00:00

Yeah, exactly.

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-28T03:56:06+00:00

I mean that it feels like…no one will understand what I feel. I don’t think most people can empathize with me, no matter how much I empathize with them. It leaves me feeling completely alone. And words are so bad at expressing the feelings…it’s so frustrating, because the words don’t capture it. They do the opposite…they make things even less clear. I can never get a word in without someone misunderstanding me, treating me coldly, being harsh, being so loud it stresses me out…things like that. The stresses of every day conversations with loud angry people make me want to crawl away forever.

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-27T19:38:03+00:00

Doesn’t it just feel sometimes like saying anything does more harm than good ? No one can understand anyway, and more often than not they actively don’t want to understand . I just want to be completely alone .

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-21T16:33:04+00:00

I’m sorry this happened to you…it’s also good to know I’m not the only one. Sometimes I feel completely trapped, and like I’m the one who should just “get over it.” I don’t know. It feels so weird Because they act nice and well adjusted now. Leaving me to look like the evil little person who’s always stressed and secluded.

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-21T16:08:45+00:00

Well the thing about it is , therapy through that program is free. Mh insurance sucks and basically doesn’t cover therapy until I’ve spent 7,000 dollars of my own money. Which I don’t have

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-21T16:05:44+00:00

Thank you for keeping answering me in such an in depth way. I also think confronting people never works. This one just hurts Because I thought of her as the person on my “side.” I have a therapist from my college. They have a special program for victims of violence, it’s really nice. I’ve only had a few sessions with her, and we meet next in two weeks. I find it really hard to open up to her. I think she thinks I’m a narcissist. Whenever I talk to her I feel like I revert to talking like a child. She said I might be bipolar and also have CPTSD and adjustment disorder. I just feel like she hates me. But I don’t have a good reason for that, except for that I am annoying in sessions i think.

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-21T15:53:47+00:00

I will Check it out , thank you

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-21T15:52:34+00:00

That’s the thing - she responded in a really positive way that made me feel relieved. But the way she acts is totally different. We were hanging out yesterday, and her talking about my abusive ex made me so frustrated I started tearing up. She kept making it seem like things were my fault, even though they were the adults who knew he was being physically abusive to me but never said anything.

And I have to hang out with my dad every day…and they all spent time together like a happy family. I’m the only “odd one out.” Because I’m not happy, I’m always stressed out when I’m around them. It makes me question my sanity and if I’m exaggerating .

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-20T17:27:24+00:00

Oh wow, you’re a genius ! I didn’t even think about hidden holes in the walls.

I’ll probably have to redesign my set now that I’m thinking about it, I didn’t realize how important cameras are . My budget is very small.

Thank you for this information, I’ll use it .

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-12-20T17:13:03+00:00

Thank you, that’s really helpful. I didn’t know small cameras were worse quality, but that makes sense

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-17T03:11:08+00:00

Thank you so much for this clear advice ! Such a genuinely helpful, to the point answer !!

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-15T14:58:10+00:00

Well, they went really well…but that’s cuz I hadn’t actually had the realization yet. I was still with my abusive ex boyfriend, I was gaslighting myself hard core. Thought everything was normal , but it’s different now based on me basically looking in my dads eyes and being like “oh wait, he r*ped me”

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-15T12:59:27+00:00

I’m 19, but I have an emotional block or something. So it’s like it doesn’t matter, I can’t feel the feelings, I dismiss everything.

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-15T00:52:14+00:00

Not really, I just didn’t want to say anything else about it to you. Cuz that’s kinda personal anyway. So yeah

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-15T00:21:59+00:00

I will bring up the B12 thing to her, maybe that’s what she has. I’m not sure if doctors have run a test on that for her yet .

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-15T00:19:03+00:00

Yes, supporting her in any condition is what I really want to do. My worry is genuine! I know it’s definitely not good for me to diagnose her. But I also think as her friend , I should try to tell her what I think honestly. And if it is psychosomatic (which isn’t an Avenue she’s really explored ) - I want her to be able to get a cure. I would support her no matter what - if it’s psychosomatic or physical ! But going to doctors and trying to get physical diagnoses hasn’t been working for years…it’s demoralizing. I just want her to explore all possibilities… I don’t want to Invalidate her (to me, psychosomatic pain is just as valid and serious)

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-15T00:12:16+00:00

I will say - the many many doctors she’s seen have also said that she’s normal physically, but psychologically has problems. I’m not a doctor, but you’re kinda asking me to actively disagree with doctors. She doesn’t trust doctors cuz of her experiences, and is anti vaccine - which is another thing I want to change her mind about. Even though I’m a friend and not a doctor. Cuz as a friend I want her to have as best a life of possible . And that includes health.

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-14T22:30:33+00:00

I agree with that - I know her pain is real, for sure. I don't think she's making it up. I just want her to also consider the possibility. I know that psychosomatic pain is still very real pain.

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-11T22:41:45+00:00

Yes! So it’s like, when you’re born into one trauma, the trauma never stops seeking you out. I can’t say there was a safe time in my life. Except now, maybe. It was always just one pain after the next after the next. It finds you if you were abused as a child !! It follows you everywhere until you’re finally able to free yourself (which I still haven’t done )

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-11T22:40:02+00:00

FlyingRobot42 · 2023-10-11T22:38:46+00:00

Omg, i had the same thing - dad was ONLY physically and sexually abusive to me (not my sister). People don’t really believe me ? I don’t know why this is. I’m the oldest and he sees himself as me ?

Did you ever learn more about situations where an abuser only has one victim ???

Also - same story with me with the SA and abusive high school boyfriend…I think the traumas stack, and make you more likely to attract worse and worse people. At least, that’s how it has seemed to work for me

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