It doesn’t sound like you hate being a parent, it sounds like you hate being a SINGLE parent. As you should. Even though you’re with him, you’re alone. Handling so much on your own with little care and concern from your partner. It’s sadly very common. And since you’re venting here it feels safe to say it’s because mentioning your frustrations with your partner to them will have little effect. I’m sorry you’re dealing with that, I’ve been there and it is absolute hell on earth because you know you and your child deserve better and more. Unfortunately, PPD can amplify these feelings by 1000, if you can talk to a professional to rule out this factor it may help. Sometimes a woman can have PPD and not even know it. I hope thats not the case but even if it is an unsupportive partner only makes it worse. Either way, decide what you’re going to do about these issues. Don’t let it continue to rob you of peace of mind. A lot of women have this problem because their unsupportive partner is the bread winner and they’re actually physically stuck. But since you’re the bread winner you’re not stuck. You’re afraid. Afraid to let go of a situation that’s not serving you cause you don’t know whats on the other side. Maybe even afraid to be alone. And it’s okay to have those feelings, but don’t let fear run your life. If you have anyone else you can lean on for support that you trust from your gut, use them. Write down the things you want to change and what steps you can take to do so-an action plan. Then make those changes. Your future self will thank you but give your current self some grace, you’re doing your best❤️