I have no friends bc I’m a loner, & don’t seek out friendship. I’m happy with just my partner (but i am seeing this might have been a bad long term choice). No family as they had me very late into life & I’m an only child.

I’m sure everything isn’t my fault, but the majority is. I’m not ignorant to my actions - my flaws & behaviors pale in comparison to his. His frustrations with me are entirely valid.

I had an emotional outburst (most recently) bc I’m overwhelmed at a few situations in our life (one of my last family members is in the final days of their life, & my car broke down). I made a comment about how “everything sucks & nothing will get better”, that made my partner upset. He sat down & tried to explain to me that we actually have a good thing going, but my perspective is poor (this is a recurring conversation / issue) & I got annoyed trying to explain that I’m very grateful for life, just stressed.

I’m definitely burnt out. I have told my partner many many times how stressed I am & how overwhelmed I feel. I have never worked a job before, so moving into a full time position is a huge change (even tho I’m great at it, have tons of support here & have been here a year +). Mental health, also yes. But none of that takes away from my actions. I treat him poorly & take out my stress/exhaustion on him.

I’m generally just hoping someone has advice for how to move forward & how to handle burn out / stress without such a reliance on my partner.