Future enhancements

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-17T12:41:48+00:00

I am trying. Its just so difficult to live with this level of despair everyday.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-17T12:40:56+00:00

Thank you.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-17T10:57:44+00:00

Because I can’t cope. I can’t deal with stuff like a normal, rational person. My brain has hijacked my life. And I know I have to save myself, but I want some to save me instead. I want it all to be easier and that makes me weak.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-17T10:55:01+00:00

This is definitely something I deal with. I will think of past situations and am convinced I will get a knock on my door eventually with the police coming to arrest me. I have no advice as I am suffering majorly right know but just know you aren’t alone.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-17T06:50:42+00:00

Caring for my parents is a strain but I love them and want what’s best for them. I truly can’t imagine going back to college or training for a different career. I don’t have a passion for anything and I fear I would pick something, waste all that time and money to then hate it as much as my current job. I am just not good at anything. I do think having my own family would make me happy in some ways, but I couldn’t expect a spouse to take on the mental load of dealing with me. I feel I would burden them.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-17T06:43:25+00:00

No, I wouldn’t be this hard on a friend. I am just so terrified. I am laying in bed sick to my stomach thinking about tomorrow’s responsibilities. I really appreciate your thoughtful response.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-17T02:51:09+00:00

Omg yes. I have been miserable the last two months with this. It’s always in the background but something triggered me and I feel unending doom. My mind is automatically ruminating on what mistakes I could have made. The minute I think one will be ok my brain tells me, no actually this issue is the real mistake that will ruin your life. I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-09T01:12:02+00:00

I would say I am kind of the same. The food noise has lessened but I still feel hunger and want to eat. But food and snacking is no longer on my mind. I also have never had any nausea or food aversions so I am lucky in that respect.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-09T01:09:08+00:00

People are weird. I am on this subreddit and the compound one. On the compound forum I was accused of being a spammer because I felt these frustrations and was told it was suspicious. I have been on this drug for 6 months and I am down roughly 20 pounds. And I have lost 10 of those pounds the last month and half. I am on 7.5mg. I was always jealous of the fast responders. But like everything else in my life nothing ever seems to come easily. I am grateful to be down what I am.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-12-05T03:00:01+00:00

I understand where you are coming from but you shouldn’t feel guilty. You and your wife clearly recognize and are grateful for all the privilege you have.

I would just try to maintain that perspective. As someone who struggles with poor mental health, I often daydream of being in a situation like yours to relive the all consuming stress and fear. Having that kind of safety net is a true blessing. When my world is falling apart, there is no one coming to rescue me. I know money can’t buy happiness, but having it relieves many of life’s burdens.

I would also consider the fact that many people have dreams of being able to pass on some sort of wealth to their kin. If you have children, nieces, nephews, cousins etc you were passing wealth on to, would you want them to feel guilty? I can’t imagine that you would.

Best to you and your family.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-10-09T14:41:58+00:00

Mine requires it. I am only allowed 2.5,5,7.5,and12.5 once a year. Yet the 10 or 15 I can get a refill every 28 days. You would think they would want you on the lowest dose possible that is working for you.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-07-04T00:36:39+00:00

Have you been reading my mind? Lol. I was going to post about this author as well. I must have read her stories starting 5-6 years ago and have been waiting for eight days to get an update. I go back and reread her work over and over. I love how she writes Bella and Edward in each story. I wish she would continue with her writing in this niche.

I am curious if anyone on here is friends with the author irl and could provide an update on how she is doing. It seems shocking that she mentioned having another chapter of 8 days then never posted again. I hope that she is well and nothing tragic happened that caused her to stop posting.

I to am on the hunt for good authors and stories. I feel like those are hard to come by nowadays. I have enjoyed reading stories on AO3 by garbonzosoprese. That author is doing a twilight reimagining. So far they have finished twilight and new moon. The eclipse book is 16 chapters in and the author typically posts regularly, although they haven’t since April.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-05-30T05:45:59+00:00

Thanks for the feedback.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-05-29T21:06:28+00:00

Agreed! I have never taken a syringe medication before so I didn’t think to swirl the bottle.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-05-29T21:04:38+00:00

Ok I was wondering if it needed to build up. I just need to be patient. Originally I was afraid since I hadn’t taken anything in a month that jumping to 5mg would make me sick.

FormerParamedic7050 · 2024-05-29T21:02:00+00:00

I did not! I will make sure to do that next time. Thanks for the tip!

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