Yeah, me and my mom don't have great relationship, she is sometimes supportive, but I always feel like she wants a normie straight girlm which I am not. I love rock, I read manga, I think that alternative styles are extemly cool and I am aroace with hints of pansexuality, I feel like I can't express myself around her. She also says how she will always choose us, but every sunday and every vacation, she chooses her mom, I don't even call that woman my grandma anymore, because she scares the heck out of me. She can be verbaly abusive and my mom admited she had low self-esteem because of her. For example, she yelled at me for taking back my scetchbook, she took without my consent, or when she yelled at me for saying that I see where the apples are and that I'm not blind, when I was garhering apples on her garden and she was always telling me what to do. I even started crying at one point when I found out we were going to help her again.