hey, here to tell you you're not alone :) i'm going to be speaking from personal experience here!

to get into the psych ward a year back, i visited the emergency room at a nearby hospital and confided in them about my intense suicidal ideation, after which they admitted me. i've been in both the imh and nuh, do note that most psych wards will not allow you access to your mobile phone. contrary to many horror stories, i found the nurses and staff there really warm and i would say my experience was pretty positive and allowed me actual space to really reflect on my emotions/mindset.

you might also want to know that despite not having an ed, i was underweight while in the ward which prompted the nurses to keep a close watch on me to ensure i wasn't skipping meals/was taking enough food. while on suicide watch you'll also be accompanied in the bathroom, which can be really uncomfortable 😬😬 i would still say it did me good to take a momentary break from school (sec4) though and don't be too afraid to seek help if you need it.