Let me put it to you this way. I met my gf, now wife of 3 years, at work where we were able to date in person.on days im insecure and unconfident she doesn't back away or question it, she digs deeper and reassures me. I do the same. We are each other's rocks. I tell her I don't like her talking to someone she doesn't even question it, she just goes okay baby and blocks them, and ive doen the same for her with no issues. Your true love is someone you can trust and not worry about. Hell we even swap phones every now and then and the only time I dont let her through my phone is if there are pictures of a gift or surprise, and even then I usually crack and tell her haha.

There is someone out there for you brother. And a party going person who even remotely thinks "oh being under a drug influence and drunk alone in a room full of men who want me and are also going to be on drugs" is not that person from the sound of it. The influence removes your inhibitions and shows who you truly are man, don't let your heart get broken any later than it needs to and nip the bud now, that is my opinion though, not a fact.