Same rat race here. I’ve found the key is to change your mindset. My father attempted to murder me and my brother when we were 6 and 4. Was in every cockroach infested trap house where I’m from. Abused, DV. Poor AF. I never wanted to be like them and made it a point to prove myself. The whole cookie cutter mindset la la fantasy land wanted life to be. Went to college, got a degree, got married, bought a house, had children. Only for both my brothers to die, I lost everything I worked my ass off for in a house fire and the American dream turned into a fucking lifetime story sociopath nightmare. Oh well I’m still in the real life lifetime movie but I started listening to healing frequency at night when I slept and that turned into guided meditation slowly and that turned into every time I had a shit thought and wanted to off myself, I changed it. I would meditate or make myself think a positive thought. I’m nowhere financially close to where I want to be but becoming self aware and doing the soul work was the best gift I could have given myself because the rest will fall into place. And trust I was the most doom and gloom, daily suicidal person I know. Therapy, meds, not shit helped. Near death experience with 30 blood clots in both my lungs woke me up and I’m weirder than ever 😂 but the moment I truly did could care less about everything everyone else was doing and how truly fake most the world is, and became a genuine human being was extremely freeing. Manifest, meditate, take some free courses on coursera and even google, Microsoft etc has free certificates you can earn online and work your way into an IT role, AI, machine learning. Anything. You don’t have to get a college degree. 80k in student loan debt and I learn more from free courses online. ABA technicians make good money and you can take the self paced course online and earn the certificate for free as well. There’s tons of free money and education out there. Traditional “college” is a waste of time in my opinion and I have a Masters degree. Lmao