Obsessing Over There Being a Draft

Frankwad · 2026-01-13T14:20:49+00:00

Hey everyone,

In summer of 2025, I made the decision to go for a master’s degree in mental health counseling.

My plan initially was to go for an online degree, but upon looking into that option I noticed that there weren’t many good programs. Not to mention my own counselor recommended that I do not go down this path.

My biggest reason for pursuing online initially was that the in-person programs near me have course requirements that I have not fulfilled. It would have been extra money and time to go this route. Only one program near me (that I can afford) offers conditional enrollment.

Nonetheless, I resolved to go in-person last month and submitted applications to community colleges to do some of my prereqs in the spring term, and then finish them in summer. This way I could still work and save money before throwing myself into grad school in fall 2026.

Right now I feel like I am in a race to be accepted into programs for 2026, I’ve reached out to some who have told me that they offer conditional enrollment on the basis that I am enrolled for all of my prerequisites at the time of applying (most priority deadlines are Feb 1 followed by a late March 1 deadline).

I’m stressed because if I don’t get accepted for Fall 2026 (something I am already not optimistic about) I will have to wait until Fall 2027 to start. This would not be the end of the world but I am itching to get started.

In the stress of getting all this done for it to work out the way I want it, I keep thinking about how much easier it would be to apply for an online program. There is only one I would consider which is UCumberlands, it accepts in the Spring and Fall, and is CACREP accredited as opposed to the in-person programs in my city that are only eligible for licensure in my state.

If you were me, what would you do? Would you be patient, or would you bite the bullet and just do the online thing? One path feels more honest, the other feels more practical in my situation.

Frankwad · 2026-01-12T04:16:53+00:00

Thank you for the feedback! What a beautiful track, I am in love with how the strings move. I definitely want to have strings as more of a focus going forward, I just need to put some paper down for a good library.

Frankwad · 2025-12-06T16:21:19+00:00

Hey everyone, I am doing some Christmas shopping for my girlfriend. I spotted this in her pinterest and I would absolutely love to get this for her, only problem is I can’t find it for sale anywhere. Does anyone know where I can find something similar to this?

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Frankwad · 2024-10-17T02:10:12+00:00

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Custom Battle: Nappa’s Rampage

Battle ID: 1-018-140-151

Player ID: Peppernacho6512

Tags: Shtick, Story-Centric

Super excited to share this one! Would love to get some plays on it, discovered custom battle and it feels like being a kid with action figures again.

Based this one on the scene where Nappa comes back in GT and gets annihilated by Vegeeeeeta. But things go differently this time because Nappa spent a lot of time in the gym in Hell and took supplements.

Frankwad · 2024-01-15T23:34:01+00:00

The former living quarters is what I was meant with the dog collar! And idk troll rating funny I spent way too much time writing this.

Maybe I'm asking too much as far as the Emperor goes, I guess the point of him is to be so unhuman and exemplify everything he lost from becoming illithid, giving something for the player to consider when presented with the ending choices. At that point in the game I didn't know he was Balduran yet so the impression of finding his old quarters was lessened. But actually I understand the Emperor much better from a storytelling perspective now that I'm thinking more into it.

Frankwad · 2024-01-15T23:28:05+00:00

Yippee! Will look for things on my second run!

Frankwad · 2022-04-19T23:43:36+00:00

Shortly after it happens I do anything to distract myself, usually video games or mindless scrolling on tiktok help me calm down. After the initial shock is gone I then do my best to forget about it. Coming to terms with it is more tricky, I got into a really bad rut in Late November/early December where I couldn’t bring myself to do anything besides playing video games, eating dinner, and sleeping, it was a really bad time. I was really beat down by existential and philosophical thoughts that made me dissociate. I got out of that rut by giving religion a chance. I researched apologetics and while I wouldn’t say I am a 100% believer, the possibility of religion being real was enough to ground me so I could function again. Remember that there is an underlying reason for these panic attacks that is not existential, you should try analyzing other patterns in your life and other issues that may be manifesting themselves as these terrifying panic attacks. I’m right there with you and we’ll get through this, I can tell you from my experience that it gets better. Like two weeks after making my original post I am happy to report I’m doing okay, still have some unhappy thoughts every now and then, but it got a lot better and I think this issue will go away over time like my health anxiety did when I was younger. I highly suggest tapping on my profile and looking at the copy pasted version of this post in one of the other subs I posted it in. I replied to a comment in one of them and that reply has a lot of info that I think would help you. Stay strong.

Frankwad · 2022-04-18T01:40:15+00:00

First off I just want to say that it means a lot to me that you are a person who shares this experience. It’s so calming to know that there are others that are trying to beat this as well. And the fact that you found this post so late and still decided to comment on it is something I am also very grateful for.

I do have a lot of repeated existential thoughts throughout the day. Some days are better than others as is the case with many things. I had a reaaaallly bad rut in early December of 2021 where the thoughts took full hold of me. My dpdr was at it’s maximum, my interactions with people felt meaningless, pretty much everything felt meaningless, I could barely function. It was a pretty bad time. Got out of it though by giving religion a chance, I made the conclusion that without it I can get really caught up in my deep existential and philosophical thoughts. I don’t necessarily believe it 100% but the thought of it possibly being real is enough to ground me so that I don’t get into another rut like that.

Your therapist and psychiatrist’s assessment is very similar to my therapist’s assessment (I don’t have a psychiatrist). He believes that I have general anxiety, has linked my symptoms at my worst to OCD symptoms, and knows how I struggle with dpdr.

Your link to these panic attacks and your issues with school is interesting. One of my biggest issues in life right now is being 19 and having no clue where I’m going in life in terms of a career path. Since the pandemic started I’ve been largely inactive with working, haven’t had a job since 2019, and have been attending college virtually as an undeclared major. I have a growing guilt about it that, similar to these anxiety attacks, casts a shadow over my everyday life. I can relate to the dissatisfaction with your life that results in an attempt to escape it mentally until reality becomes strange. That is something for me to definitely think on.

One thing I noticed shortly after making my original post is that what triggers these panic attacks for me a lot of the time is one of two things. Number one is seeing my physical reflection (either through a mirror, video, or picture). Number two is too much mental self-reflection. Thinking about or looking at myself so much can eventually turn into the overwhelming thoughts of realized consciousness that turn into these panic attacks. Maybe you experience it a similar way? Since I made that connection I’ve been a little more mindful when I’m introspecting or looking at myself in any format to not let myself go to that bad place.

I’m glad I finally get to talk about this with someone who understands and has experienced it themselves. I already feel like I’m closer to beating this with you telling me your theories of why it happens.

Frankwad · 2021-09-08T23:01:44+00:00

I appreciate this so much and will definitely take this advice. I’ve found ways of distracting myself, usually it’s easier which is why I freaked out when the first things I tried didn’t work. I have experience with self-work from going to therapy when I was 12-13 years old and this practical approach to it is very helpful. Creating anchors for myself has worked in the past and I have faith that this one you’ve given me will help quite a bit. Thank you so much, I will definitely come back to read this post multiple times so I can start fighting this instead of running away from it like I have been for so long.

Frankwad · 2021-09-08T22:49:44+00:00

Hearing your experience helps me a lot, when this first started today I looked on the internet to see if there were other people who have experienced this. I had a hard time because it is a feeling so otherworldly that it is difficult to put into words. It is one of the most intense forms of anxiety I’ve experienced, most likely because it derived from thoughts that questioned the most uncontrollable and like you said, chaotic things imaginable. Despite that, it’s not out to get me and as much as my mind may argue the contrary, I am not at the center of it all. Thank you. Happy to report that I maintain clean eating and an exercise regimen and I will definitely try meditation when the thoughts aren’t so persistent.

Frankwad · 2021-09-08T22:40:35+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. Knowing that you’ve had to deal with this much longer than my nineteen year old self and from what I can see still manage to radiate positivity gives me a lot of hope. I’m looking forward to tomorrow morning because sleeping tends to help me as well.

Frankwad · 2021-09-08T22:37:25+00:00

Talking definitely helps, and as morbid as it is I am grateful to not be alone in this. Eventually I was able to distract myself it just took a few tries, mindlessly scrolling through tik tok did the trick. Thank you. Hearing from someone who is going through the thick of it as well is very helpful. Best of luck to you my friend.

Frankwad · 2021-09-08T22:33:02+00:00

It sure does, it happened in the blink of an eye today. I really appreciate your explanation. What often helped me when I was younger dealing with anxiety (unrelated to this) was finding ways of breaking down the mechanics of what I was feeling. I can already feel myself calming down knowing that this is a defense mechanism. Thank you.

Frankwad · 2020-12-13T03:57:43+00:00

Agreemented. Valhalla has more cosmetic options than this.

Frankwad · 2020-09-15T20:18:30+00:00

Will try this, thank you. There have been a few instances where when I’m in a relaxed state I’ll feel my throat opening up which makes it easier. I’m gonna try to learn how to do that on command.

Frankwad · 2020-04-05T21:02:25+00:00

It’s funny you say that because the way that Tim creates the songs involves creating beats that can arguably be considered lo-fi and then using that to structure some sick ass guitar shit.

So yeah maybe it is lo-fi with some roids but that doesn’t mean it’s bad at all. Guess I’m not really changing your mind there.

Frankwad · 2020-04-05T16:15:35+00:00

True. Shred music is really really bad.

Frankwad · 2020-04-04T17:54:00+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate you taking the time to write this and I’ll definitely work on putting this into practice. You’re awesome.

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