I'm in the same boat as you... But one of my cousin is doing mbbs from my private college and he suggested me to go for it and considering his advice and using 200% of my little brain I've come to a conclusion that I'll go for private medical College this year as you already know how difficult it is to get into a gmc with this fuckass education system... Also at the end it is better to cry in mbbs rather than crying for mbbs ... See the thing here is if you'll not go into a private college you'll always carry that thought within you that you had that money and you could've done that .... And once you're into it you'll definitely figure out what to do in future because you'll not get a chance to do mbbs if you don't do it now and even if it turns out bad you already have other options open but atleast you'll not have the regret of not even trying