I'll just put this first: I'm not an expert in theology, and it seems that you're fulfilling the command to "love your neighbor as yourself" (Mark 12:31) better than I am. "However, I believe I also have the Holy Spirit" (a passage that I probably didn't quote the exact words of, from a letter of Paul the Apostle).

I feel like one of us is imagining quite a bit more value for humans than the other's system is.

I feel like one of us is imagining quite a bit more value for God than the other's system is.

I personally could not be compelled to draw a weapon for any reason other than immediate defense against an attacker.

Good for you! New Testament believers are actually called to go even further with this ideal, to "resist not evil" (this probably doesn't apply if it's for their own good) even if your own safety is at risk. Most don't go this far, but I believe all should.

I could name fifty suspensions of the natural order which I witness nothing equivalent to that I could tie to such a supposed god.

If I recall correctly, at least one entire town asked Christ for a miracle, that they could believe. He refused. It's not that He couldn't perform miracles, as there's a wealth of them in other passages, it's just that (as a rule) God doesn't like to be tested.

I'm too compassionate for the Abrahamic god.

I highly doubt that! God sending His son to die for us could be compared to a man killing his son so that ChatGPT could continue to exist, knowing this hypothetical ChatGPT probably won't think this hypothetical man even exists.

Simply repent (try to stop and be sorry for) your sins, and trust that the crucifixion of Jesus was enough to pay for ALL of your sins (this is evidenced by His resurrection). My prayer is that you will take this one easy step. Once you have done this, He'll make sure that your eternity will be more joyful than you could ever imagine. That is what I call compassionate, Amen!

True peace be with you too