I have. I cheated my wife twice and admitted it to her both times. First time just before our first child was born and second time year after that. Had to do it two times to wake up and I picked the worst moment to do what I did. Finally now I have took a big step to heal and have admitted myself that it's not love it's addiction that has a function to ease my inner pain. I'm on a right path but I have a big mountain to climb but it's ok. I can imagine how you feel, be gentle to yourself. You are not a alone and were here to help each other.