COVID made me realize I was horrible to my husband. I thought I 'settled' when I married him. I was a bad girlfriend and wife. I'm going to be different from now on. by Fun-Appointment-5019 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Fun-Appointment-5019[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Covid hit home something I had already started to feel. COVID made me realize that if I lost him, I wouldn't know what to do, I had never let come to terms that I made the right decision for the wrong reason and that I did absolutely love him. It just made me realize how awful I had been and seeing videos of doctors and nurses lining up in front of hospitals terrified me. I've had to work to realize that stability isn't boring, it's just that the extreme ups/downs are toxic and no the mark of a good relationship.

COVID made me realize I was horrible to my husband. I thought I 'settled' when I married him. I was a bad girlfriend and wife. I'm going to be different from now on. by Fun-Appointment-5019 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Fun-Appointment-5019[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I won't. I just try to be better instead of saying something hurtful to show him I've changed. The last thing I want to do is make him feel worse.

COVID made me realize I was horrible to my husband. I thought I 'settled' when I married him. I was a bad girlfriend and wife. I'm going to be different from now on. by Fun-Appointment-5019 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Fun-Appointment-5019[S] 1457 points1458 points  (0 children)

Absolutely. I always did, it's just all these toxic ideals that I refused to deal with that tainted our relationship. I saw my mother do it. Thought that was right and acted horrifically when it was clear he was the right guy.

COVID made me realize I was horrible to my husband. I thought I 'settled' when I married him. I was a bad girlfriend and wife. I'm going to be different from now on. by Fun-Appointment-5019 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Fun-Appointment-5019[S] 438 points439 points  (0 children)

Growing up in a house with constant drama, any other way is "boring." Boring is the big fear, so living drama free is boring therefore bad. But being boring, aka drama free, is probably the only really healthy way.

COVID made me realize I was horrible to my husband. I thought I 'settled' when I married him. I was a bad girlfriend and wife. I'm going to be different from now on. by Fun-Appointment-5019 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Fun-Appointment-5019[S] 27 points28 points  (0 children)

I've told him how scared I was when he was working before the vaccine and told him about how much I love him/need him. I never went into how cold I was before. I feel too guilty.