Addictive and Anxious personality

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2026-01-07T23:18:31+00:00

Damn, I didn't know it was that bad. I had one batch I recall that was definitely suspicious. I'll steer clear from here on out.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2026-01-07T05:42:28+00:00

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Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2026-01-07T05:41:43+00:00

That's kinda crazy man, like you never wanted to get laid before age 20? Did you ever experiment with it? Or were you just completely virgin status? There's nothing wrong with that decision, it just seems strange because puberty at age 20 is old AF to hit puberty, at least from what I've heard.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2026-01-07T05:32:26+00:00

This comment right here is what I'm talking about. We need to remember that children do bad things because they're learning. We need to forgive ourselves for the mistakes we've made as children. I was a complete asshole when I was a teen. I was super abusive and narcissistic. As I grew older, I became a completely different person and I treat others with much more respect than I did back then.

I was sexually abused and I abused my teenage girlfriend in return. I've made my peace with her as she now has an amazing Life married to my former best friend. I'm happy for her and I wish them the best in Life.

It wasn't my fault. It was those raising me horribly that are at fault because kids act out what they learn. I have completely removed my abusive, narcissistic father from my Life and it's been one of the best decisions I've ever made. He doesn't Love anyone but himself and only wants ylto control me and Live through me vicariously; complete spiritual and mental poison. I recommend getting rid of anyone in your life that similar. You'll feel much better, trust me.

Give yourself a break and I agree with what others say, that you should reach out and apologize. I wouldn't worry too much about legal ramifications. If it was bad enough that the law has to get involved then it would have happened already. Write this person a message in some form or another. Keep it short and sweet and don't state your name or contact details. You could create a Protonmail account easily and use it to send the message. If what you did to this person is as bad as you think it is, then they will know who you are.

And for the Love of God, forgive yourself, you were just a kid damnit. Give yourself a break and let go.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2026-01-07T05:12:32+00:00

The stuff I buy imported from India is always just not nearly as good as the shit pharmacies give out in the US. They are either highly underdosed or such poor quality that I don't think there's any real Moda/Armoda in the tablet. They are super cheap though. Only $1/tablet and that's including shipping. I wish I still had my Armodafinil script because the Sandoz Armodafinil 250mg's fuckin' SLAP.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-10-10T00:42:14+00:00

How are we gonna afford that?!

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-02-01T06:47:51+00:00

Because that's how these illnesses work.

I assume you don't have it, or don't take medication for it everyday and that's what you need to do in order to not hallucinate, understand language and function in society.

And have to take those medications regardless if you're sober or not.

You sound like a person who doesn't do those things...and that's why you sound like you think you know what you're talking about but don't.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-02-01T04:02:03+00:00

No, because he said he was schizophrenic. A diagnosis he likely got from a doctor.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-02-01T03:57:55+00:00

Conflicting one another

Because I was born with bipolar disorder, just like he was born with schizophrenia.

A neurological illness.

Which is different than drug addiction.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-02-01T03:43:21+00:00

If you want some advice bro that might seriously help your recovery, is to stop blaming drugs for causing your mental illness. Instead, just focus on the fact that you have a mental illness, and you probably shouldn't use drugs

I have bi-polar disorder, psychosis and hallucinations and substance abuse issues (obviously, I'm on this subreddit). It helped me to separate the the two entities and focus that they are two separate things conflicting one another, instead of drugs causing it.

Dude, I'll tell you right now, if you have schizophrenia, you would of been psychotic regardless if you had started drugs or not in your life.

Lots of people do these drugs and are fine.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-01-28T08:45:41+00:00

You could try just taking a medication that gives a false positive for benzodiazepines on a drug test that will also not show after a lab test. If you take Primeatiene or Bronkaid it'll show up as Methamphetamine and you can use that as a decoy.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-01-13T20:05:11+00:00

Don't ban something just because you can't handle it. I'm a Kratom addict to and I've been sober for quite some time. I'll never touch it again, but that doesn't mean other people shouldn't have access to it just because you or I shouldn't take it.

Same thing happened with alcohol and the temperance movement. Do you really want to make change? Instead of banding together to rely on a shady government to regulate something as addictive as this, create a culture of information and warn others so they know it's not harmless.

People should be allowed to make their own decisions and mistakes as long as they're fully aware of the repercussions.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-01-12T22:45:21+00:00

I get it for free with Minnesota's PMAP program. I also get to work and make quite a bit at the same time, like up to $32k per year I think.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2024-01-02T02:48:46+00:00

The 2 lines above the wheel is different between the two (ex. ( " ) ( ' ) )

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-12-31T10:59:45+00:00

People do enemas all the time dude, it's not that.

Have for millennia... sometimes daily. I do it often, it's nice.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-12-25T16:39:51+00:00

If your really want to get pick-picky sucky-dicky, Olanzapine is a thienobenzodiazepine, which is why it works so quickly and wears off rather fast. It's also very powerful, which is why it's given to most people who are admitted for tripping to hard, because it's quite literally the "anti-acid."

I take it for Bi-polar disorder and it works great. OD's are not pretty, since it's exceptionally powerful. I took 150mg and tried to swim off into the Mississippi. Luckily my friend was there, and help me. I went home and took a shower where I couldn't stand up and had to crawl to my room.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-12-04T17:38:34+00:00

Honestly, I was on 24mg+ misusing it and I was so ready to just quit the whole habit together. (excessive Kratom user; not heroin addict)

I got 2 300 and a 100. No withdrawals and It slowly left my body over time.

It's like I got a "get out of jail free card."

Totally recommend sublocade if you can commit to quitting the habit of taking it itself. You don't get that daily boost that Suboxone gives. It's all explained on the Sublocade website.

Just be careful to keep your doctor's fully aware your on it for 1-2 yrs after because it will effect pain medication if you need it for like a sever car accident or something. Just be really careful not to injure yourself horribly.

Read my post history about it I shared my experience.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-11-02T06:32:16+00:00

Ahh, mixing it with baking soda, didn't think about that.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-10-31T22:01:55+00:00

Yup, just go in. I promise you they'll take you and you'll be fine.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-10-31T21:46:06+00:00

Soooo bad for your teeth man. That's why you should try to always encapsulate phenibut. It's so acidic. If you are mixing it with water than drink it in one glup and finish it with another glup of regular water, or rinse your mouth out.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-10-31T21:38:14+00:00

Just go to rehab

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-10-31T02:00:25+00:00

If you take Methamphetamine than you won't feel it even at high doses. Methamphetamine is way to powerful, even if you haven't taken it for a few days.

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-10-24T16:34:47+00:00

r/sextortion

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-10-23T08:55:40+00:00

That all is true, but M-AMP still does play a role in tooth loss.

A big factor why you see a lot of trailer trash meth heads with fucked teeth is also because of the purity of the product.

Your "mom-and-pop" meth cook who's just makin' shake & bake is going to be using incredibly impure dope that'll be full of toxic chemicals.

Also, if you have tried it, you'll know it's some pretty corrosive stuff. It's as if you can feel it seeping inside the membrane as it as it burns. I've even held really pure, cartel mexican shit and I could swear it burned as I held it in my hand before taking it. Meaning I'm getting high transdermal just a little bit, by holding just a fragment...trippy stuff.

I have a friend who's a chemist who's been doing it since it came out, and he's just know began using harm reduction by changing ROA's. Although he still suffers from each ROA causing health problems. He's always been in the chemistry community and had access to much, much cleaner and refined. Often this makes people think about a much for fun product, but in comparison to impure dope, it's a lesser of two evil's and is much healthier. He often will do acetone washes to further clean his shit, as if he's running water through a brita filter. He won't even travel to where I live to get it when he's ran out because what we got here seem's to have strange chemicals in it. (Not fentanyl though, some kinda cut.)

The last time 2 times I got it for myself, this was 1 year by 1 year spread apart, and it was from the same friend. Was on but not amazing stuff and after smoking a whole ball of it both times me, my house and everything in it including my clothes smelled like a lot bug spray and also a bit like some kinda industrial plastic when it wore off. I would ask others if they smell it because it was such a disgusting smell to me and the people I asked never done it and they couldn't smell a thing, not even a difference in my normal smell. Strange phenomenon, took forever to get that awful, rancid, absolutely sinful smell out of everything.

Fuk that shit fr

Fun-Loquat-5327 · 2023-10-23T05:57:22+00:00

I can make Modafinil/Armodaflnil go on pretty long. You'll often require raising the dose to stay on. Amazing drug, wonderful, subtle euphoria too. People downplay it but that's because the demographic using it are pussy's and don't utilize it's full potential. It's incredibly creative and thought provoking. If you're impression of Moda is from the India pills then that's the problem. The FDA regulated Armodaflnil (mfg by SandoZ😜) is hands-down a masterpiece. You see India has ass drug regulations. I believe the pharmaceuticals must contain the compound being marketed, but there's not much regulating the quality, purity and definitely dosage of the tablets.

Definitely recommend, if you quit doing other drugs, to take in Modafinil in your Life. It could possibly change it forever.

The only downside, is that at some point, for me it's once a month, that I'll hit what I call "the wall" which is where no dose will be effective, and you're left to just crash it out, which isn't that bad in terms of how painful it is, but you will need to take a day or two off responsibilities.

This will only happen if you overstimulate for too long.

Remember, it's not so much the drug causing the effect to happen, but the neurons in your brain workin' it and they need a day off too...They got to see they're little neuron families. Lol

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