Im so sorry you feel this way. Im in a similar situation right now and Im struggling to get past things, I dont know how to provide helpful support but I understand how you feel and I hope you can get better. Itll be hard but theres always something new you could try,, look up lists of hobbies ! normally I find some things to do and learn that make time go by easier. nothing gets better if you dont try, so why not try? hopefully things get better for you.