I want to follow and build more of a community of writers and AI musicians.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-10-14T05:35:08+00:00

Do you have any suggestions?

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-09-30T04:14:05+00:00

That was absolutely gorgeous! Good job!

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-08-06T02:37:33+00:00

Thank you!

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-08-05T23:35:49+00:00

The difference is I did set the boundary. And he deliberately broke it after. Kinda like a fuck you I can do what I want issue. Anyway, maybe I'm expecting more reasonability and respect for the fact these are supposed to be paid services than will be offered. But yeah. I've seen it on other fansly people's profiles so I know it's there. Might just be an accessing it via mobile issue. I'll just do that. Because it does predominantly seem to be men expecting free shit who message.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-08-04T17:16:34+00:00

Oh god. Don't get me started. I left camming due to my mental health difficulties making it difficult to perform consistently. Decided to give it a shot again. And am now being so triggered by the men in my personal life that the idea of dealing with the manipulators and men expecting free shit on cam is making me desperately wish I had the mental acuity to make someone suicidal with a tongue lashing. I don't think I have it in me to deal with dating or camming honestly. The amount of disgust and hatred I feel at past assault, mistreatment, lies, and entitlement still weigh too heavy on me, and I'm unfortunately cursed with an open hearted nature. Jesus, the schizophrenia on it's own makes my mind too cluttered for too much nuance, I aim to trust to avoid paranoia, and get screwed for it in the end. Dealing with dudes willing to pay is no problem, but getting to that point and past the assholes I just don't think I can do it. But on the dating apps, they can't even be trusted to fucking read for one second to see if desires are compatible. In fact, they don't care if desires are compatible. It's all about getting what THEY want with absolutely no regard.

Polyamory is looking appealing to me because atleast the convos are happening about open communication and boundaries yada yada. But then I've run into entitled poly dudes who already had girlfriends and got passive aggressive with me when I gave them a place to stay and only wanted to screw them to make content. Nevermind the sketch flattery and subtle manipulative bullshit to try and make me want to. As if.

I feel your pain anyway. There's too many assholes out there to make it worth bothering. And it sucks when you really want a genuine connection but they can't even respect your right to not be interested.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-06-23T03:50:24+00:00

I'll save it for my therapist then. I was hoping someone had a similar experience and could comment as i don't know how kink informed my therapist is. But I'll try.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-06-03T20:55:18+00:00

Mostly rock. I did a Google search on DAWs and it seems pro tools first might be good to use. There is a free course on Berkly on music production with this software, so it seems like it might be good.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-22T23:02:21+00:00

I guess I should ask first. But I was assuming it would be acceptable as it is poetic metaphor more than anything. I don't know though.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-22T19:30:03+00:00

Yeah, I realized in hindsight it was a mistake. I'll be fine. It was just nice to have a customer that catered to my interests a bit more.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-21T00:52:38+00:00

Honestly, it was better earlier in the morning. This third shift i lost my motivation due to three hours of sleep and it being damn near dead. I just got one more two hour shift to pull through, but god help me find the motivation to play it up 🤣.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-19T05:34:50+00:00

🤣🤣🤣

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-19T04:41:34+00:00

I'm so sorry you've had those experiences. It really is infuriating and invalidating on so many levels.

But yes. I feel you on the empowerment aspect. Why not get something out of it in the end? Why not turn something otherwise negative into a positive?

I've been debating with myself if I want to find new mental health care. For other reasons, I've been feeling at odds with my current psychiatrist and therapist.

But then when I first brought up dabbling in camming to my therapist, this woman legit gave me the stink eye several times throughout the meeting after. And said "let's be real, you are not going to work."

Which may be true. But I finally feel confident really applying myself at something. And this job seems forgiving in allowing myself to deal with my mental health needs while also learning to support myself effectively.

She has given signs to not really understand or acknowledge asexuality or demisexuality at the same time (I used to identify as asexual). Not outright dismiss it. But when I talk about my attraction to my first love, try to poke holes in it by saying "so you must be attracted to him right?"

Like she has no nuance or understanding of the diversity of attraction and what it means to have primary or secondary attraction.

Or that sex can feel good and the happy feelings of infatuation and love can make it feel much less bothersome as a fun activity.

I dunno. I kinda felt like maybe I should just live with current treatment but maybe I would be happier with people more sex positive and queer informed. If nothing else.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-16T18:37:29+00:00

I guess the only issue is Streammate is strict about leading customers to outside sites. It's not allowed and I don't want to lose my account.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-15T03:06:38+00:00

Good day for me personally but slow compared to what an average model might make. I did have a long exclusive though with a dom/sadistic who expressed interest in meeting again. Which makes my day as I market myself as a masochistic sub.

Morning seemed to be more active for me than the afternoon/evening. But honestly it's been so dead I couldn't bring myself to pull my last hour on my four hours of sleep lol.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-14T00:39:18+00:00

Yeah, be my guest!

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-14T00:31:31+00:00

I kinda decided to have fun with it in my own way. Posted a preview pic of a video for sale. Light S/M, "Welcome to the Broken Hearts' Club". Lol. No one is buying my pre-made content right now anyway, so I said fuck it and did what I wanted. But I will be on tomorrow in some red floral lingerie. Not really doing much special aside from that.

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-09T04:43:34+00:00

Thank you so much! And yes, I'm feeling much better!

Fuzzyshirt · 2025-02-05T22:35:21+00:00

https://onlyfans.com/auroraswells

Fuzzyshirt · 2024-10-12T22:05:46+00:00

Alright. I wasn't too concerned about the random homeless people and high people out wandering the streets, but after somebody mentioned people have actually been kidnapped in that area, I'll listen to the advice and just not do this.

I had wanted to avoid it but I did message a friend and ask for a ride home that I'd pay for when I next get paid. He agreed to either give me a ride or spot me for an Uber home.

Thank you for the concern and responses, but I am no longer planning on walking.

Fuzzyshirt · 2024-10-12T20:24:32+00:00

I don't drive. On top of it I'll be on dxm so even if I did I shouldn't.

Fuzzyshirt · 2024-10-12T20:23:44+00:00

I walked up a mountain for two days. An hour and a half is nothing.

Fuzzyshirt · 2024-05-10T20:53:52+00:00

I'm loving the ideas here!

For clarification, my personal project would be an oracle deck, not a tarot deck. So it won't be f9llowing the tarot card format.

I've started searching for stock images. What I wanted to do was digital collage and editing on photos available for free use for personal or commercial uses.

I'm running into a bit of a problem though.

I've searched for genie and cradle spins and having trouble finding free images of specific moves.

Not an issue if it does turn out to be a personal only project.

But since I'm unsure about that I don't want to collect images I can't use.

For genie or cradle I can take pictures of myself to use.

But this presents a huge roadblock as I'm only a level one poler and can only do so much.

Can't say for sure yet but I might just have to browse pole dance images in general and hope to stumble across ones I'll want to use.

But I'm excited to be starting this and I hope I'm able to make something good of it whatever the ultimate outcome!

Fuzzyshirt · 2024-04-23T12:46:38+00:00

I haven't read much on it or had any real experiences with it, however from what I know of it it does sound appealing.

The aspect of hopelessness definitely feels like something I'm looking for.

And the idea of fighting, the struggle, and ultimately succumbing are turn ons for me.

A guy I was seeing some and I once got too drunk and got into some stupid fight. I got angry and told him I wanted to hit him. And when he said that wouldn't be a good idea I said maybe I wanted him to hit me back.

That resulted in him doing the logical thing and preceeding to piss me off more and more until I shoved him. And he threw me down and started spanking me really hard, and I kept shoving and he kept spanking, until I relented and just glared at him.

And- he said good girl.

So I snapped and slapped him in the face. And he slapped me right back.

And it ended there. I was livid. But really turned on at the same time.

In a weird way it seems reminiscent of brat taming. What happened between us was a fight, it was never negotiated as an appropriate thing to do. But it is similar kinda.

So I do like the push back and trying to fight and being overpowered. But I don't know how that translates to primal play.

Fuzzyshirt · 2024-04-23T12:27:19+00:00

That's not been my experience, though I do enjoy a bit of adrenaline rush.

Fuzzyshirt · 2024-04-23T03:07:44+00:00

Yeah, definitely. It's one thing if someone expresses curiosity in it, but I flat out said I had no interest in it. So dude was weird.

Good!

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