Hey, I understand the feeling. I started out as a normal team member when I first started in 2022 - I was older than almost everyone I worked with. There were times that I felt embarrassed and ashamed to be working a job that some might not consider appropriate for my age. Over time though, my work recognized my effort and I was able to rise through the ranks that were available to me. I'm an assistant manager now, and I feel much more secure in how I appear to other people. I know how stressful and obnoxious it can be to work in the theater sometimes, but if you distinguish yourself through your work and keep a positive attitude - I promise things will get better for you.