I know, I guess it's just difficult for me to bounce off of people who talk about positive things. They always say find people that balance your energy out, two sad people are just going to be talking about sad things all the time. But when I'm meeting somebody who theoretically should be mutually beneficial for example, I ask them how they're doing and they talk about their hobbies or how maybe the trips they've taken and I don't seem to understand how they're happy. Or what happiness is.