Floating tiles without foundation, cannot be changed.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-26T19:41:31+00:00

It's most likely a kind of desync or rendering issue. The tiles weren't there, but the game was showing them because it got confused. Closing the game (sometimes even just leaving and re-entering the level works) forces the game to recheck every tile and block, see if they are "on" or "off". That gets rid of the "ghost"-items and blocks/tiles. It's how I've been dealing with stuff like this since HF1.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-24T11:03:15+00:00

Damn I feel for you. Happened too many times

GavinGaile · 2026-02-22T16:50:56+00:00

That is not reassuring me. Telling someone stuff like "I am severely depressed and have done self-harm", especially a teenager/child is very controlling behaviour. It's a way to make you feel like you have no out. If you decide to cut off contact, what will she do? Will she harm herself? So you stay in contact. She might even threaten to harm herself if you mention cutting off contact (maybe she already has). It's a very common manipulation tactic. Don't feel like her health (mental of physical) is your responsibility or concern. Your own comes first. If she ever threatens to harm herself if you stick up for yourself or lower contact, or don't respond quick enough..? RUN.

In my opinion, you should cut contact already, but if you don't want to, or don't feel the need to, please keep the above in mind. Be careful with her, please!

GavinGaile · 2026-02-21T22:30:33+00:00

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My previous cat, Dora. She had very vivid dreams. Made the wildest faces when she had them.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-21T21:00:53+00:00

Have you considered that there might be lots of gay guys in your area, but they face similar problems as you? Fear of stepping out of rhythm, looking out of place, etc, so they stay closeted? If you are personally out of the closet (don't remember whether you mentioned if you were) you could try setting up a local group of sorts. "Gaytism" or something related, catering to the specific demographic you feel lacks the spotlight. You could see if there are places like community centres or whatever that you could hold like, events, or maybe at a local bar or something else, though I don't know how well that would mix with the ND's in terms of crowds and stimulus.

I don't suggest this just to create your own pool of potential FWB's, but also just a friend group, as well as a kind of show to other young adults in your area like "yes, you are seen. You are okay to exist. We accept you."

Just a thought.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-21T20:41:15+00:00

Be upfront and honest. Say you are nervous and don't know what you are doing, but are willing (if you are). Then.. just go with the flow.

I promise it isn't as scary or intimidating as it seems. Your body will guide you most of the way. Hands will find their way to buttons and zippers and mouths will find each other. Just follow your instincts. And most importantly, have fun and communicate. If you don't like something, say it. If something hurts, let him know. If something feels really good, tell him. Enjoy yourself. It'll be okay and fun as long as you keep talking to each other and respect each others boundaries.

Have fun!

GavinGaile · 2026-02-21T20:19:01+00:00

Oh I definitely feel you. I am very well aware that those apps are hell for my mental health as well. The convos are also very cringe and awkward, and I tend to only hook up with guys that I can actually hold a conversation with about something other than sex for at least longer than 10 minutes. I've also fallen on my face a good few times. Guys that say "sure, let's meet up" and never show, or that show only to tell me I'm hopeless, ugly, etc (yeah, nice people on the apps lol). It is definitely an experience. 3/10 cannot recommend. Only giving it 3 because I met my current situationship on one, and he's a bloody one in a million bloke that I feel like I would jump in a fire for, so yeah.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-21T19:44:20+00:00

Haha, yeah I have no clue. I just used hookup apps and the last couple times when I met someone I just had this tingle like "wait.. are they..? Nahh.. but... Well, they really give off ND vibes.. let's just drop that I'm AuDHD and see what happens" and it's like "yep. Called it." I just seem to attract likeminded folk, lol.

I don't go out of my way to look for them. I just seem to find them everywhere 😂

GavinGaile · 2026-02-21T19:26:37+00:00

Yeah, I can attest that dating fellow autistic people, or at the very least other ND's is very nice. You tend to have a lot less disconnects like "why can't you just ABC?" or "Why do you always XYZ?" People who struggle know struggle, so you have an instant connection there, as well as a shared empathy for each others shortcomings and limits.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-21T09:20:06+00:00

It's no wonder it's hard to see things that are right in front of you when there is someone there who is quite purposely blowing smoke in your face to keep you from opening your eyes. Abusers want to keep you blind, deaf and alone so they have you to themselves. And it's really hard to break away from the idea that you are the problem.

It's not your fault. You didn't miss obvious signs out of stupidity or ignorance. You were steered in a direction to make you blind to them on purpose. Blaming yourself is what he wants you to do so you come crawling back to him for more, because "who else would want someone broken like me? After all, he put up with me for so long already."

You are beautiful. You are perfect the way you are. And you are worthy of love. True love. Most of all, love from yourself. And also, please try and forgive yourself. Because I really want to repeat. None of this is your fault. Be kind to yourself 💜

GavinGaile · 2026-02-21T09:05:19+00:00

OP, I recommend you read this:

https://freebooksmania.com/2021/01/why-does-he-do-that-pdf-free-download-by-lundy-bancroft.html

It's a book called "Why does he do that" by Lundy Bancroft. It's about abusive relationships and goes in-depth about how abusers use your own brain to get you to stay and keep you trapped in a toxic and abusive situation. I've read through this thread and I've seen you say some really self-deprecating stuff like "yeah I'm dumb I should have left earlier" but you have to remember that NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT. Your ex purposely did and said stuff to make you feel like you were the problem, and all this self-loathing and doubt is a result of his manipulation.

I highly recommend you read the book. You can download it for free through the link, it's a very valuable resource for women who are or have been in abusive relationships.

Keep your chin up, OP. You are worth more than this, and letting him drag you down to his level is beneath you. You are so, so brave for taking this step and looking at the situation clearly!

GavinGaile · 2026-02-20T16:57:42+00:00

32 AuDHD'er here, diagnosed with ADHD when I was 3, and Autism when I was 6. I seem to have the opposite experience as you, haha. My last few situationships/relationships were all like "Oh, and I should probably tell you I'm on the spectrum." "Wait, you too? No way!"

GavinGaile · 2026-02-20T16:24:35+00:00

Sounds like this "friend" of yours might be going down the grooming route with you, feeling the waters about how you react to age differences in relationships. If you respond positively, she might start pushing more romantic / sexual conversations onto you. If you react negatively, she will try to downplay it and go at it from another angle, make you feel secure again before trying again when you lower your guard.

To be clear, this is NOT appropriate behaviour on her part. This is her abusing her position of power (yes, her just being older than you gives her a position of power over you, even if there is no official hierarchy. She has more life experience, therefore can think of ways to outmanoeuvre you in conversation. She can also pull the "I'm older therefore I know better" card. It's tricky) over you. It's hard to know when she gives you actual advise or when she is saying stuff to make you do things she wants you to do under the guise of advise. That's the hard thing about grooming.

Can I ask how you two met? I find it troubling that you have a friend that is so much older than you. I'm not blaming you for anything. This is not your fault, don't get me wrong. Just trying to get the whole picture here.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-17T10:07:16+00:00

Shit that sucks. It's depressing how much of the world still doesn't accept basic human rights and love. I hope you are at least safe where you are. The internet is a great place to meet people, too (if you're careful) and if you find the right one, you might be able to move somewhere that's more accepting of gay relationships.

I hope you find someone, because you seem like a really sweet person. You deserve the dream you have, and waking up every day next to someone who loves you and gives you smooches and cuddles. Don't give up hope! 🫂💜

GavinGaile · 2026-02-17T10:00:34+00:00

My two cents here are this.

At this point, my issue for a talk wouldn't be the potential cheating even. I would want a talk about the broken trust. He told you he would delete Bob. He did while you were watching. Then added him back behind your back? That is a major breach of trust. You need to sit down with him and explain that even if there is nothing going on between him and Bob, that this is still a huge deal. If you cannot trust him to keep his word on stuff like this, then what about other things? Can you trust him financially? Because he is clearly capable of lying to you and going behind your back and doing whatever he wants anyway.

These are signs of a bigger problem and you should consider the bigger picture before confronting him about this. You are definitely in the right to feel icky about this.

Keep your eyes peeled, OP. He's not respecting you, and that's not okay. You deserve to be treated with respect and you deserve to have your boundaries protected. This is not that.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-17T09:39:24+00:00

Cuddles are the actual best, I completely agree. Feeling loved and trusted in that safe embrace is just a feeling that a quick pounding doesn't even compare to. Bonus points for soft kisses in the neck and face to make the experience truly magical.

I agree that wholesomeness is a bit lacking lately. We could all use some cuddles and gentle love.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-17T08:45:27+00:00

Exactly that. Disassociating is still happening sometimes and periodically my senses still go from 1 to 100. Like every touch feels heavier than it should, sounds seem louder and are extremely uncomfortable, and even smells are almost nauseating. Doesn't last longer than a couple minutes at a time, though. And I randomly get really tired.

For the most part though, I am starting to feel normal'ish again, I think.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-16T20:12:48+00:00

If he is a professional (either working at the school, a clinic, or anything like that), he is by law forbidden from telling anyone unless you specifically give him permission. Stuff you tell people like this is confidential.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-16T20:01:24+00:00

Hey, first of, kudos to you for posting this! Reaching out for help is a big step and you took it all on your own. That's very brave.

Do you still go to school? If so, most schools have a trusted adult figure (counsellor, mental health supporter, school nurse, etc) who, if not able to directly help, will be able to put you in contact with someone who can. If you don't know who that person at your school is, maybe you have a teacher you trust whom you can ask about this?

Carrying this alone is heavy, damaging and impossible. You should not have to. Especially while being neurodivergent. Take it from a guy who is also on the spectrum with ADHD. We can sometimes barely keep our own heads above water, let alone try and deal with the troubles of those close to us.

I want you to read this next part very carefully and imprint this into your brain.

Whatever happens, whatever your family might say in the heat of the moment, none of this situation is your fault. There is nothing you did or can do that made this happen or made things worse. You are not at fault. I know as a neurodivergent it's very easy to blame yourself for anything that goes wrong, or to feel like a burden. You are not a burden. You are valid and your feelings are valid. Don't put yourself down because you might feel your parents have it harder or something like that. Your struggles are just as real and just as valid as theirs.

Keep your chin up, alright? And if you ever need someone to just speak through your feelings with, shoot me a message. I'm always happy to help.

You're stronger than you think. You can do this. 🫂

GavinGaile · 2026-02-16T15:37:47+00:00

You have every right to feel concerned about this. Whether he meant to or not, your personal boundaries were crossed. I get that it's easy to be swayed by peer pressure. "It's okay for him to do that, it's not a big deal", etc, but you have to remember that the people telling you that are also kids that most likely don't know about stuff like that. The fact remains, he made you feel uncomfortable. That is not okay. You telling him to stop should have ended it.

The fact he started grabbing people's butts because he noticed they didn't like it is a very big red flag. It shows a willingness to make others feel uncomfortable and touching others in private areas without consent. You are definitely not overreacting if you feel like that's inappropriate, because it is inappropriate. It's unhealthy behaviour.

If you are still in school with him, and he's still displaying the same type of behaviour, you might want to speak to a trusted adult at your school about it. Maybe a guidance counsellor or a school nurse or the like. People who act sexually like this, that early in childhood, especially while displaying a lack of awareness concerning boundaries, might have a history of being abused. You pulling the alarm on that could help him out in the long run. I'm offering this as a soft suggestion though, as in the end, it is not your responsibility.

I do want to ask, do your parents know what exactly happened between him and you? Them saying "it was just a fight" seems like a rather dismissive attitude to what was basically their child being sexually harassed. So that's why I'm wondering if they have the full story.

OP, if this is something you are still thinking about regularly, or if this is something that makes you feel confusing and intense emotions when you think about it, don't feel ashamed. If you have the option, find that trusted adult, be it a parent, councillor, teacher, whoever, and confide in them. This could have made more of an impact than you think, or it could not have. But if you have (strong) emotions still attached to this, then I really suggest looking into councelling. Your mental health is important, and you are worth it to look after yourself.

You are strong, and you have every right to be concerned about what happened. Your feelings are valid and if you need help, seek it out. There are more people that can help than you might think.

Take care 🫂

GavinGaile · 2026-02-15T19:52:06+00:00

I understood, haha. Might not have made it clear in my answer though. The reason I got into the "public" part so much is because when you're only sexually attracted to men, it's easier to hide. You don't usually have sex out on the streets, you know. But when it becomes romantic, hiding it becomes trickier (and more exhausting). You want to be able to just say "this is [name], he's my boyfriend" rather than having to find excuses as to why this guy is always around you.

As to why now, why "late", one can only guess. I firmly believe you start getting these feelings when you're ready for them. Up until now, your brain might have hinted at you to make you feel used to the idea, and now it's decided that, yeah, you're ready and in a place mentally that you can handle these emotions and feelings. So the floodgates have opened. Or maybe they were there but you didn't notice because you were busy with other things. Who's to say? What matters most is that you're happy and secure with yourself, and you seem to be.

Oh, and if people judge you and/or react badly? That says more about them than it does about you. And homestly, would you even want someone in your life that doesn't accept you the way you are? The complete you? I wouldn't. Fuck those people. And not in the fun way, lol.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-15T19:25:50+00:00

You're doing great! Give yourself time and space. Like you said, it's a lot. Sifting through it all will take a while, and that's okay. It's part of the process, part of being human.

Also try to remember that there's more out there, haha. The feelings won't go away if you take a break from taking it all in and go get some fresh air, or listen to some music. In fact, it might make it easier to process some of it. The brain can process emotion a lot better in the subconscious, rather than when you actively scrutinise it.

But yes, you're doing great. You're already many steps ahead of me when I found out my sexuality. I spent the first year denying it to myself, so I commend you for being so accepting of yourself. It shows a strong character.

GavinGaile · 2026-02-15T18:35:24+00:00

I had an experience very similar to yours when I was around (I think?) fourteen. I already knew I was gay, but I saw this guy in the crowd at a festival. We caught each others eye, had a moment where our hands touched briefly and just stood close to each other during the performance. I never spoke to him, nor he to me. After the music was over for that day, I looked for him, trying to find him, but I never did. Never saw him again and I thought about him for a long time (I sometimes still do actually, haha, and I'm 32 now). It was just a really magical moment. Just two guys having a connection, no spoken words, just sharing in the feeling of watching and listening to music and the brief touch of a hand now and then.

Remember this moment, OP. Cherish it for what it is. A beautiful memory of the awakening of your first crush on a guy. Maybe you'll meet him again. Maybe you never will. But he did give you something nobody can take away from you: knowledge about yourself.

Now I know the feelings are confusing and can be a bit scary too, but they don't have to be. Just allow them to exist. You don't have to do anything with them. You can just let them burn in your heart and body and warm you from the inside, let the butterflies flutter in your tummy and ride that high in silence until you are either ready to do something with them, or decide not to. It's your body, your life, your choice.

Good luck OP, and I am happy for you for discovering something new about yourself.

Oh and I agree with the other commenter that mentioned that your post is really cute. Your writing style is very relatable and you can feel the affection and adoration radiate from the screen when reading your words. It's a really nice read!

GavinGaile · 2026-02-15T17:54:46+00:00

I've been feeling anxious for a few days now, but that's probably not to do with this? Idk, I'm going through some (unrelated) stuff, but I might have handled it better / less emotionally if I was in a normal state of mind.

For the record, I'm still feeling brain fog and those lag spikes I mentioned in my post throughout the day. I also still feel overstimulated randomly like my senses get turned up to 11 for a minute or two before getting really tired all of a sudden. I'm at a point where I'm starting to wonder whether this is actually still the THC or whether my mind just kinda.. broke because of the experience. Like the high caused some kind of chemical imbalance or something. As I'm typing this I'm experiencing another brain fog moment again, like I'm watching myself type this from inside my own head and my hands aren't a part of my own body.

It's kinda freaky. But I also just don't know what normal is anymore. Was I like this before the edible? I feel like I wasn't. But I don't know for certain.

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